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Spend money to be happy

2008-08-18T13:21:00.004+08:00

I think i insane liao.. like using money to buy happiness leh... haha... sat pay mei's cab to come drink with me... then today go buy heels.. and i mean heelS lor...

i buy 4 shoes.. yeah yeah... 4 lor... In 15 mins.. i go in the shop, i ask to try this n that... and i buy all that i try.. 15 mins, i walk out of the shop with 4 pairs in my hand... kaka.... And i even ask yiyi to buy one too... same pattern as mine.. wahaha... happy~ i am a member or charles and keith liao... lalalallalalal...

When i came back.. everyone that sees me.. was like WOW... haha.. ok la... 4 pairs only.. small water.. dun need so big fuss.. keke....

But in return of all the spending, I gain hatre from yiyi, and bel... yiyi hates me... make her spend spend and still spend... then bel hates me cos i bring yiyi go drink and drink and drink... arr....

PS: dun hate me la... Kat Kat is a good gal... will control yiyi when she drinking de.. i'll get drunk before her de... i make sure~ bel trust me k.. bout the future beer belly.. haha.. dun worry, i'll make her walk stairs.. kaka... Or maybe next time ask her dun drink beer... drink others.. keke... ;p

Seriously i getting more n more spoilt liao.. by all of them... fri, nice... me n yiyi looking forward to drinking again~ kakaka... I think drinking more effective then shopping for shoes... at least... cheaper la... i scare to look at my credit card bill this month.. anyone wanna help me pay for my bills... kakakakak... i more then welcome... =)

Nvm bout bel and yiyi.. cos i gt one more honey.. mei mei... MY HONEY~ i need to get her number and msn.. so that she can be my permanent drinkin kaki... and mad partner... yiyi scare when we did the crazy things we do on SAT~ lol....

Weekend~

2008-08-18T08:35:00.002+08:00

Saturday couldnt slp and happen to me msging yiyi, who was on the way home from a drinking session with mei.. keke... and out of instinct... I jus ask her to come down my house for a drink too...

So, yup at around 12 ++, she is at my house... and she was on the phone with mei... then i jus shouted... mei, come down also leh... i pay for ur cab.. kaka... for ur info, i dunno mei at all... Lol... yup... and she came down too... from hougang... I think all people staying hougang de is siao... jus like me... cant really imagine she is really at my house... Ya, so the 3 of us was sitting at my house void deck drinking.. sitting like its our house... me lying there like its my house sofa... wahaha... Im mad... get me tipsy and i do more mad stuff...

All our beer were from the coffeeshop, after we went to buy the 2nd time, thinking we wun be drinking again liao, we walk to the park to drink... there we do more crazy stuff.... for info on the crazy stuff.. contact miss yiyi... i too paiseh to say~ Lol... cant imagine i did those... wat if people seen... arr... heng la.. already do liao... anyway i mad too ma... kaka... We were there drinking, and mei idea gd lor... drink with straw... super fast will finish leh... and its true... no impact done... listening to songs... toking rot.. comparing... comparing wat ? its for us to know... wahaha.... We drink till around 5 plus... Then they forcefully send me home.. not cos i drunk... jus wan to drink more... haiz... went slp around 5++ too... but woke up at 8++, jus couldnt slp... haiz...

Sunday, was online for half the day... chatting playing, listening to songs, staring blankly into space... keke... met Rena from wawa... She is a singaporean noew studying in Australia, same age as me... Well, we tok alot... share alot of stuff.. we can tok la... And i think she n angie thia very sama sama.. pattern same same de... Yup, we tok bout each others problem... tok bout our view.. weird, can share so much things with a person u jus met... =) I think i like viwawa cos of this... meeting diff people... Yup, i wawa till 1.40am... couldnt really slp too.. but yup, still force myself to slp... =)

Jogging...

2008-08-12T08:26:00.002+08:00

I went jogging yest... wooohooo... finally... after the muscle ache that time for the short short distance of 300m, i very determine to train up my body again~

Yest when jogging, jog one big round... haha 1/5 of the road, i'm walking... chest pain, gastric pain... Keke, i sure my stamina cannot make it .... No longer like previous time de.... Old liao.. haha...

But i sprint a few time to know where i can go... Speed still not bad ba~ for my age... hehe... then one guy ran pass me still give me a thumbs up... wooo... And tell you ar... the guys is fit de lor... keke...

I dun have muscle ache yet... or should i say... only gt slight slight aches only... still not so bad... =)

ok la... nothing to blog liao... alot of things happened... but i cant say... only certain people will know... like my love love = zhiyi...

zhiyi, thz... at least i can tok to u... muacks... dun go away k... go drink with me again k... But i must make sure u not drinking so much liao... feel so bad sia~

lunar 7th month

2008-08-04T08:40:00.004+08:00

I openly declare... this is a suay month...

1. Jus the 1st day... i lost my toilet key (Office).... In the office at night, when i ot-ing, i lost the key... found our on the day itself... but when i walk back trying to find... its gone.. And the thing is, no much people is ot-ing lor... SO where is my key? haiz...

2. then On 03.08.2008... worse... worse worse lor... first started during the evening... i suppose to go my grandmother-in-law's birthday celebration at 6.30pm, so at 6.00pm, i went into the room to change... So of course must close the door right? i didnt bother to even lock the door since no one will open the door de... Then, after i change finish my clothes liao... less then 5 mins, i try to open the door... Then the door is freaking stuck.... arr.... the door knob is spoil.... F*** haiz... and the worse thing is, my husband and my is both stuck inside... arrr.... and only left my maid n baby outside.. (^.^) i have no tools to open the door and i dun have my phone with me lor... WTH....

In the end, ask my maid take my phone and call my brother-in-law... BUT he slping and he no ans the phone... No help... How, in the end, use the pimple stick go and try open the door... arr... then pass the tools from kitchen via bamboo stick... stupid till cannot make it.. In the end still cannot... only manage to open a hole big enough to pass my husband phone..

Better then nothing, so i took the phone and call my brother-in-law's wife... finally someone picked up... then ask them come save us....

And so he drive to our house and save us... haha... with his powerful kicks... 3 kicks and he open the door... woohoo... after being trap for 1hr.... dotz....

2. My heartbroke... during this door breaking event, my dad called, and my maid tried to pass me my phone... when i told her not to... but she still try, in the end, my precious phone kana 2 big scratches lor... upset till cannot make...

3. Go my mother-in-law house for dinner... then force me to drink the chicken wine... OMG... i hate hard liq.... What is chicken wine? It is chicken and wine go steam without any water totally... then in the end throw away the chicken left the wine to drink.... the wine is hard liq lor... arrrr.... and i drink 1 bowl full lor... sucks... cannot make it... the spell... arrr... now thinking of it, i still wanna vomit lor... after drinking feel so giddy... then at night i cant slp lor.. too awake... cos stomach pain too... alot of wind after the wine... So play viwawa till 1am.... But at 1am force myself to slp... but still cant slp.....

4. Finally when i wanna slp... my baby wake up at 3am... she dun wan to slp liao.. she wanna play... arr.... She never like this before lor... y yest? haiz... then my husband pat her to slp cos she yest for once baby reject mummy.... then after that i think she fall aslp after 30 mins... but not into deep slp.. so have to keep patting her... and i do the job.... haiz... so ya, no good slp yest...

5. Today came to work then zhiyi havent come... so i msg her will my pc screen as the email... then while i typing my msg on my hp... suddenly i reliease my screen moved... Upon further notice, my email is scrolling down itself... Arrrggghhhh... My hands are on my hp, and my mouse are quite far away... Y is the page scrolling by itself... dotz... haiz...

SEE... 5 bad event in a short period of 4 days.... arrr... i expect more coming in this whole month... haiz... Wish me best of luck....

Obesess?

2008-08-04T08:03:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i dun think im obessess... Why do you think playing wawa means obessess.... Ya, I have been playing wawa most of the time this weekend... Since Im not working and we not going out... why cant i play viwawa???

Recently so many unhappy things happened, cant i do something relaxing?? I jus wanna play and relax... Know some new people... Chat bout something that is not related to work... $ or anything that is unhappy....

Cant i have a little hobby... I also keep my bb company... you sometime also leave me there... then u go do ur own stuff... watch tv or watever while i slp... then why cant i play game while u slp? else... i watch tv while u surfin net bout car, and wat so ever... why cant for a change, i surf net u do others?

back @ work~

2008-07-23T07:54:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i dun like coming for work today... I jus wish to stay at home.. in my own house... hiding... like a tortise... or watever... i dun wan to come to work... I dunno how to break the news to them... How do i tell my boss? The reason for my leave recently is becos of my miscarriage? How to say?

At the same time, i dun wish to see the eyes of people... dunno how to face them? if they say anything, how should i reply? How to remain strong when im not... How to be chippy and smiley when i am so hurt inside...

I rather stay at home, whereby i can smile as and when i like... And cry out loud as and when i like... and no one, no one will see it or worried for me... Nor will they ask me multipile question that even i dunno the answer.... How i wish i know the answer too... But where do i find the answer? Anyone can tell me?

The tot of dying is still as strong... but it dies when i think of my daughter... Who will take care of her if i die? Can ryan cope with it? Am i being selfish..??? But the pain is eating to me bit by bit... I dunno how long i can endure it... Someone help me pls... No matter how strong i show to be... Whenever i tot of the baby... The strong wall that i build jus collapse...

Death

2008-07-22T08:07:00.002+08:00

Honestly i have never believe in blogging everything u feel online. Cos for the simple fact that everyone can see what you type.. And thus you might end up in a law case. Or the simpel fact that everyone near you hate you or worried for you.

But today death has pass through my mind for a million time.... I really dunno how to be strong~ What have i done to deserve this... Why must this happen to me? Twice.... i really dunno how to cross this...

I really wanted the baby... i can still feel it inside me... how can it be gone... jus like that... why???????????? I pin so much hope in it... and now, its gone... If heaven wants to punish me for whatever i have done wrong. Isnt once enough? Why again? And jus wat wrong have i done to deserve this???????????????

Everyone wants me to let go, i am young and can try again and i already have a lovele gal.... Ya, do you know how much fear for me to have this baby? after the first miscarriage... Now the 2nd.... Can i ever have the 3rd? I cant take it... I cant.... After the 1st miscarriage, I ask myself to think for val and be strong... seriously, i cant do it again~ I hate life... I hate the world... I hate it.........

Believe in God? Just what have i done in the first place to deserve this? If god is there then why this unfair treatment? YOU MADE PEOPLE SUFFER THEN WANT US TO TRUST YOU AND YOU GIVE A MIRACLE TO SHOW YOU ARE THERE~!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU.....

Boring~

2008-07-16T10:21:00.002+08:00

Seriously i have been bored for the pass few weeks to months la... so i have been reading the blogs of Cruz Teng.... http://www.cruzteng.com/page/100/ And to my surprise... I have back track his blog all the way till March 2006... Meaning from 2008 - 2006, i have read finish lioa... Also found some interesting webby from his blog... OH gosh, sometimes his blog entries can be so fun... and some can be some Boring lor... especially when u see him promising to do someting, most of the time, he wun have follow ups....

Following a link he posted on mar'06... i did a test...And the result is as followed.


	Your travel type: Travel Yup The Travel Yup likes exotic and adventurous travel, but prefers big cities with fast paced life. He has a keen interest in other cultures and always brings home a few souvenirs. Shopping in Bangkok, getting a tailor made suite in Kuala Lumpur, that's the kind of thing the Travel Yup is into. Even though he likes to get away, he prefers his travels to be comfortable.
	top destinations: Las Vegas Hong Kong Beirut	stay away from: North Korea Ciudad Perdida Darien Gap

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I think ya, quite true... i like a get away but i prefer my travels to be comfortable... who dun right? But then, india still is a good place...

And yeah, you dunno how boring i am... i have finish all the archive of SGSecrets... http://community.livejournal.com/sgsecrets All of them without skipping lor... jus imagine... I need more spice in my life~

Other then being entertain by someone that i dun feel like... Cos it'll end up i entertaining him more... and its like so BORING... and i really mean entertaining lor...

End of this blog entries, else more "boring" will come out... =)

Emotion

2008-07-14T12:53:00.002+08:00

Been feeling very emo recently... From my msn nick... scared n worried... especially after fri.... wat happen? I dunno how to sad... and dun wanna say... dun wan all my friends to start tagging me n asking me to cheer up... its not easy... even my sister also ask me not to think of it and just cheer up... PLS, it dun happen to you before... of course you not scare n worried... Once bitten twice shy~

Im really scared... haiz... NVM.. change topic...

Arrrrrgggghhhh.... my phone is peeling skin... i had this phone not long ago de leh... super upset... the skin peeled on top~ arrrggghhh... and its not like i dropped it or knocked on it~ why i always so suay~~~~!

Hais.... nvm... last fri i was on Mc... and i really hate the doc... THAT INDIAN OLD DOC~ wondering how u became a doc????????? i went to the doc, he did not say anything... so i jus say my part... say i feels giddy the whole day and having serious headache... the head very heavy.. he jus say ok and measure my pressure... ok... then after that i added i felt a sharp pain in my left chest area... and he jus cont with ok... then he signal me to go out~ WTH? a doc that jus say ok to a doc when the patient says something? and dun bother to see what is wrong or explain to the patient? haiz... hopeless..

then nvm... when i say i pregnant, he asked me how long i have been pregnant... stating the fact that i not sure... guess his comment.... "SO YOU MEAN YOU DUNNO YOU ARE PREGNANT ANOT?" hello idiot doc... i told you im pregnant as i tested using the test kit... i havent seen the gyna, how i know how long i pregnant ah~ AND UR RECORD should show that i pregnant too... READ THE BLOODY RECORD IN YOUR HAND.... and he simply reply ok... asshole... feeling dejected, i asked him for a mc before leaving the room... and he say OK again...

WATEVER is the word in my mind~ then when i go collect the medicine n MC, the MC wrote half day... WTF, half day... i ask the nurse... she say cos i came at 12 ma~ pls... use ur brain.. i giddy and headache... if i come on my own when i feeling so bad... im sure to faint on the way... of course wait till better then come right... and wait till my husband is back before he accompany to the clinic right? Haiz... then she say, she go ask the doc... CMI.. then the medicine that they gave me is for giddy and thats it... then chest pain leh? nvm... forget it.. i wun risk my baby by taking the medicine of a doc that is so unprofessional...

going to this doc jus becos it is a company doc... haiz... cannot make it... wonder how they become a doc... did they paid to become one or are they really qualified.... hmmm????

i think i too against that doc liao... or maybe i am too upset over everything that happened recently thus i venting all the anger and stuff on that stupid doc ba~~~~

WELL... i just pray... pray for the best... will know the answer in 9 days times... pls... dun disappoint me... tell me... tell me its going to be ok... pls... pls... i pray~~~~ haiz~~~ dun let the dream come true... its really very important to me... pls... i pray....sincerely... pls.... haiz....

New Job~

2008-06-23T13:45:00.003+08:00

Recently been thinking alot~ very tired... thinking can i stay at home and be a house wife... Haiz... but singapore really hard sia~ financial is almost impossible to attain single income and can support a family de... ALMOST la... but im sure we can still dream~

What do i think of my new job? Seriously, i dun understand... I dun understand, y am i always the target of backstabbers~ Jus join not long... and you know wat~? Here comes a few scenerio:

1. (For information, the idiot is a guy. We jus happen to be toking bout company policy)
In a canteen, tea break.
idiot: Hey Katherine, have u ever with company work how many months then gt maternity leave?
Me: 6 months lor.
idiot: then jus nice lor, after probation lor...
Me: Ya, but during the probation, the company can always fired me off de ma~
idiot: No la, u so good... work so fast, so hardworking... the company where will fire u off?

koa, so sarcastic~ i also no step ur tail~ u need to step mine isit? IDIOT~

2. (For information, the idiot is the same person i toking bout in 1)
In office.... At my desk
idiot: Open door after 6.30 (back from dinner break for OT).
Me: Sitting at my desk. Looking at my computer
idiot: WOW! U OT AH? SO GOOD AH~!!~! GOOD GOOD~@!~@!

F**** pls lor, i OT cannot ah? only u can OT ah? somemore is fake OT lor... everyday stay till 8+ to earn OT... what, waiting for wife to off work so that u can go fetch her isit? PLS LOR... u very erxin leh... even if i OT, gt ur problem ma... i sit there do my things, u need to come say me isit?

3. (For information, this idiot is a gal)
In office, at my desk.....
idiot1: Kat, so in further the ot form u do ah? Since u admin...
Me: Sorry, i already say before lioa.. i not admin lor... the ot form depend hu is filling up... take turn de... Normally not me...
idiot1: AH YA, since u already doing it liao.. THEN JUS BE ADMIN lor..
Outsider: haha, i think u need to intro urself lor... else better think i admin...
Me: I already intro alot of time le... I NOT ADMIN~

CMI, jus becos no space for the admin to come in, thus i need to help out in the admin role tempo... but pls lor... is help out.. dun take it for granted lor~ !@#$%^&* !@#$%^& The worse is, being helpful help out, u still use those commanding tone tok to me... Pls la, jus hu are u?

Alot more... haiz... too long to update... thats y i miss scs's friend... at least there is geniune friend around there... Dear always say, becos in espo, the team is big... so it is easier to meet nice pple... but i dun think so lor... No matter small or big, i didnt see espo have pple like the 2 idiot i tok about lor... at least for my 1st yr there... here, 1 month and i see it.... haiz...

i think i too emo recently, so very easy angry ba~ haiz... people hu know me well enough will know y ba... dun wan to say too much~!....

Cheer, life still have to go on~!!~

A new Environment ~!!~

2008-06-02T12:42:00.003+08:00

I am feeling very tired now... cos been sick for the past few days... having a flu and sore throat...

Think it is the curry puff and the curry fish head last fri... Awwww... i really hate flu... like the tears are uncontrolable. and u are like crying all the time. Haiz... so sad...

Anyway, have started working at the new job since 20.05.2008. Been able to adapt, but it is still very tired. Have to do coding... Sianz... but lucky dear dear knows about abap and helps me along the way... hehe... Now i am getting a hand of it liao... starting only la... but ok la... can work la...

New place, new job scope, new challenge and new friends. But then, i miss the friends in scs... last last fri went to angelia's chalet... met up with some of them... gossip alot.. haha... miss the time whereby we will have unofficial tea break at the corridor or even toilet and gossip... haha... fun sia... that is also where u'll know alot of office politics... sad and glad... sometime sad, sad that humans are so scary... And u might be the victims. But glad sometimes, its not you...

But then I have escape liao... no longer in the company that is blind... the management that is blind... things that whatever said from the higher management is always right but things from the ground level are always bias.

Please la, a successful company is not one that have higher management only.... It all start from ground level. Yes, ground level may be bias... but think again if all the ground level say bad about the a higher management... shouldnt the higher higher management look into it? y are all bias against one? there is always a reason for everything de... If they dun realiease that sooner, they will loss alot of worker then can work.... And left those that cant work... only can speak...

PS: Friends, endure... the light will shine again.... Huiying, Stella.... Jiayou... I'm supporting u all from here... =) The life of washabi will end soon... ENDURE...

PS: Higher management, please remember what u do today will come back to you in a way or another... Just wait... If all you wan is people to do is nod their head when u say something... then perhaps u can buy some puppets from the street... they will move whenever u pulls the string... they'll never go against ur wish.... If you really want people that can work... then listen to what they have to say... AND PLS DUN DEGRADE SOMEONE JUS BECOS U ARE NOT BEING TREATED LIKE THE KING/QUEEN/GOD BY THE SOMEONE... THAT IS JUST SO LOW....

Any way, i am happy in this company... overall.. cos i feel recognize for the effort... not like in the previous company whereby... hard work not equal recognization... it is jus the person and how u wan to treat the person.. Treat the person like his is the king and god, then u'll go far... Being recognize... else forget it la...

Updates

2008-03-08T00:16:00.005+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog... been rather bz... bz with work and stufff..... of course, not forgetting my Val....

During this period of time of disappearance... Many things happened, good or bad.... Well, maybe recently things hasn't been good ba....

Just recently i suffer a miscarriage... On 03.03.2008. Nice date right? What happened? I don't know... On that Sat i just went to my gyn to confirm my pregnancy, and was elated about it... But on Monday morning, when i wake up to prepare for work. Sudden hot flow of blood just came out and the baby is gone... Rested at home for 3 days... All happened so sudden. Well........ I am now ok le... somehow got over it after some crying... =) Maybe everything is just predestined. At least families and friends have all been quite supportive... Encouraging me: "nvm lor, you still young... At least you still got Val..." Heard the same conversation over and over, although it might be boring, but thankz for all the support.. It helps....

Well, like i say, things hasn't been good... And seriously i mean it... Cause not just the miscarriage... I was also kana backstab by one person that i "CALLED" good friend. Didnt tot all this would happen to me... THAT BITCH!!!!!! hate her to the core..... I'll NEVER forgive for all that she has done... BITCH making use of people weakness to climb, you are so despicable!~!~!~ if you wan to climb higher then me, try using ability instead~!~!~ although i doubt you have any... Seriously, this lesson you taught me, I'll never forget~!~!~ you mentioned that we are only colleagues, work must split clearly.... THANKS... you make me a fool, cause i treated you as a friend, and cover most of your shit(at least before your backstab... )........ But still, thanks... I learnt my mistake.... Some bitch aren't worth the effort for me to help. At the same time, isn't worth the effort for me to try and be forgiving... despite the things you done, i have always try to be forgiving and let it go... NOW!~ i'll remember forever YOUR NAME, as the hurt that you incurred has left a BIG HATRE in me.....

Friends out there, learn.... dun be like me... in future, if someone say he/she dunno something.... Teach them in front of everyone, make sure everyone saw/know that you teachin him/her. So that he/she cant say: "NO! I DUNNO HOW TO DO!!! YOU ALSO NV TEACH ME~!~~!" thats wat the bitch says... worse of all, i not only teach her once, not twice, but at least 4-5 times... on seperate accounts.... AND SHE STILL HAVE THE CHEEK TO SAY I NEVER TEACH HER~!~ F*** you know wat is nbccb.... haiz... damn, my fuse just blow because of the bitch again... if you say i no teach, then why when i say i dunno u go try, u immediately know all the steps~!!~ how i wish i can really kill u.... haiz... disgusting... If i were to write everything she did, i doubt i can sleep tonight... cause i'll die of anger plus it'll be too long...

But bitch stop showing off your ring by saying:"it is 0.56 carat, actually it is bigger but because it is PERFECT cut so now ONLY 0.56" it really turn pple off....

Well, i think i should stop talking about her le... For someting happy, heres my Val's picture... Isn't she cute and lovely? hehehehe... She is my everything... i think i shall leave Val's photo as the entry to my blog, as its late le... Good night....

Some people jus dun get it ~!!~

2007-10-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

I wonder how and i wonder why~!!~ some people just dun get it... When one dun reply you in msn, it can mean alot of things!~

1. The person is not around. (Ur msg will be there when he/she is back, so stop messaging every few minutes to say hi!)

2. The person dun feel like talking. (So just Leave the person alone)

3. Or all of the above~!!~ (If the person is nt around when u msg, when she is back, she'll reply if she wans to!~ SO just leave the msg there and dun bother to nudge or anything!~!~!~!~)

Seriously, was at home since 8.10.2007, on my maternity~! so basically my msn is on whole day. but that doesnt mean i am around to chat whole day..... sometimes i just wanna be left alone~!~~!~~!!~ GET IT?

when i dun wan to reply, means i dun wan to reply. no matter how many times u nudge or msg... and if u cont to nudge or msg continous, you are just being irritating~! AND MAYBE I'll REPLY... BUT WITH ALOT OF VALGUARITY and SCOLDINGS. AS YOU ARE BEING FAR TOO IRRITATING~!!~

The second time that i find people irritating is when they see my nick, they will goes like: " ARE YOU PREGNANT????? SHOCKED ". and "WOW, YOU ARE PREGNANT SO FAST~!"

HELLO!~ my nick already said that im pregnant and is on my maternity leave~! aren't you asking the obvious? further more, so what if im pregnant.... is it any of ur problem? if u are close to me, you would have known earlier... and not only now that im about to give birth~! *roll eyes*

if you are not close to me, then what has it gt to do with you that im pregnant or not? when u all asked like that, you are not being concerned, but irritating... cos i can see the color eyes that you all have when posting that type of questions.... especially for those that dun usually tok to me in msn... you question is not out of concern... but out of typically singaporean style of being kpo... and nothing better to do~!

Seriously i am not a clown nor work in the circus, so I DUN ENTERTAIN~! IF YOU ARE BORED, FIND URSELF SOME OTHER ENTERTAINMENT~!~!~ AND LEAVE ME ALONE~!

Marriage is a trouble

2007-03-17T13:59:00.000+08:00

Marriage is a happy thing, however, at the same time it is trouble...

Trouble? Why? dun understand? The reason is because alot of things need planning... Like:

When the wedding should be held?
Which company should we ask to do the wedding photo eg...?
Wedding dinner when and where?
Wedding dinner cost?
Who to invite?
When the new house coming?
When can start renovation?
How decorate the house?
How much will the cost of the renovation?
The furniture?

Haiz, alot of things need to decide and think... headache... But somehow, i am lucky... Lucky to have someone to plan and decide everything for me... haha... of course la... the guy should deicde de ma... hehe... Ryan chew will decide! ;p wahahahaha...

But i think he must be very happy being busy... haha... he should be happy de... I agree to his proposal... wahahaha... Its his good fortune leh... ok la.... also my good fortune... he is a nice guy la... Once meet one good person must treasure... There sure is alot of better person out there.... But one should be contented with what he/she has. Once you find a good one stick to it. Yes, there might be better one out there, but there also might be worser one out there... So im contented... hehe...

Talking about the proposal... haha... secret... its for me to know how its done... hehe...

For who and for what?

2007-03-04T15:39:00.000+08:00

For a reason or another, i have been thinking to myself. What is all the planning for marriage for? For me? For him? For what?

Planning for marriage has always been happy for me recently untill these 2 days. I found that you no longer care... The reason for planning is no longer me... And for what other reason, you should known better.

If you no longer care anymore, i think there is nothing more to talk about... We should just forget the whole issue. Forget about the house, the marriage, forget about the relationship. I guess this relationship to you is more of a burden then happiness...

Since that is the case, i think everything should just stop there... I think the quarrel with had these 2 days was small, but it really means alot. It shows how strong our relationship is.... Maybe we should reconsider our marriage....

Both of us has been tired over the days.... Busy over many stuff... moving faster and faster to solve issue... But i guess its time we slow down or even stop to think if the solution we think up of is really a good solution.........

Sick Sick

2007-01-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

It is a brand new year... but it hasn't been a great year for me... haiz... this year only 1st month cross only, i already 2 days MC le... if i still not feel better, tml i gotta cont my MC.... sianz half.... alot of work waiting for me... haiz....

Finanical year closing le... alot of things to do... sianz full... That day work till nearly 2 am leh... sianz.... tired till wanna drop dead... haiz.... after that long hour of ot, i keep getting sick le... body so weak... Migraine is getting more n more serious, easy headache and giddy.... haiz...

anyway, recently there has been alot of things going on and alot of misunderstanding has occur.... Hope for the best for the things ba... Mr Chew, let's work for the better ok?

I believe things will definitely works out if we work together de... Don't let some misunderstanding spoil out relationship ok?

PS: Mr Chew is not from NYP... Not the C++ lecturer... haha... someone mistook Mr Chew as the lecturer.... haha, u should hu i am talking about... haha... Mr Chew that i talk about in my blog is my boyfriend la... he is from my workplace de... hehehe....

1 december 2006

2006-12-01T17:18:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah... today went to eat with angie, kf, wendy and her bf, of course Mr Chew will be there la...

We went after work... but i gt delayed cos of work.... haiz... usual lor... the xiao bai like to last min de ma... wat to do... i only small fry... haiz...

Anyway we went to ding tai feng to eat... KF say i can only order 1 dish... cos that time we went, i scared her too... order alot... haha....

ok la... i am a big eater... lol... erm... dunno wat else to say le... but has a nice day....

30th Nov 2006

2006-12-01T16:58:00.000+08:00

wa la... i am updating again... this blog is to praise the Mr Chew lor... hahaa... Cos he very good... Finally he bring me go chomp chomp to eat again le....

hahaha... cos he has a bad experience before... I order alot of food, then in the end, he got a scare.... And then, he say he will never go with me to chomp chomp again....

However, out of his love.... he finally bring me there again... yeah!!!! yum yummy... We order lesser food then i ususally do... but better then nothing la... wahahaha....

we order:

- chicken wing,
- hokkien mee,
- sugar cane juice,
- carrot cake,
- stingray
- and lastly

But sitting beside us is an idiot.... wah liao... u know, those typical irritating singaporean lor...

im also a singaporean... but she is the extreme type leh.... intially it happen that Mr Chew accidentally knock into her cos the passage too small... but he apologise le... yet that bitch made a big fuzz.... bitch is all like that de la....

Then i heard that she was complaining that the auntie from chicken wing store refuse to give her extra chilli sauce, and she actually scold the auntie before snatching the chilli and walk off... Such ugly things yet she can say till so proub... ugly people....

Later on, she even say Sinagpoore service lousy.... pls lor, serve until her, everyone also will bad temper... so rude... to people like her, dun expect good service lor... She also not very pretty and rich la... Act! er xin....

Nvm... that all for 31 nov 2006... dun intend to spoil my day by talking about such ugly people.... byebye... have a nice day////

haiz

2006-11-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

recently health really getting from bad to worse... haiz.. now at home... mc again lor... seen a doc... gastric flu.... suspect only la... dunno root cause... jus feel giddy and wanna vomit... sianz... now 2 day mc, but guess i'll go back office tml ba... haiz...

Since i gt into this job, been sick at least once every 2 week sia... the place is so bad... bad air... bad environment... its not weird if you sees rat.... haiz...

Thinking alot recently... should i go quit? isit really good to carry on working here... doesnt seems a good thing... i paying too much a price to work here leh... haiz...

Felt that i am pretty useless at timeszs... dun even understand the person that i should be understanding... and seems that i am always the one thats making him upset... haiz.. instead of relieving the stress and cheer him up, i'll in the end make him feel even worse... and after which he'll be the one cheering me up instead.... haiz....

conclusion: IM a bad bad gf... =(

FInally....

2006-10-31T10:39:00.000+08:00

Finally i get to blog again liao... yeah!!~!~! haha... I updated my blog 2-3 days again but the blogger gt problem thus i am unable to publish my post....

Sianz leh... somemore, i deleted a couple of entry... Spend alot of time backing them up.... haiz...

Lucky now solve liao... thanks to sylvester... hehe... He help me write email to blogger... ok la, u win la... u can find the blogger email i cant la... happy? bleah...

Today Im on leave... woke up to do some stuff... haiz... work stuff... so that jiahui gal gal can show that xiao bai... hehe... finish liao... weee... yeah... but found out that i gt alot of patching need to do sia... siao liao.. haha... nvm... i relag today first....

Anyway yest was pretty angry... cos my bigger boss commented that me n dear very close in office during lunch... My thinking is f off lor... Come on la, close during lunch? since when? Why dun you say long ago...??? Before you know we together??? Why when you know we together liao then say? You only know like last Fri, Mon come say us... When we have been together for 1 month... During the whole month, when u dunno we together, why dun say? You jus saying for fun lor... nothing to say find things to say....

ah ya, who dunno is because xiao bai poison me from behind... what to do... looks like my intention of leaving is getting higher as the days goes by.... cos some one seems to be commenting that i not following instruction... F off leh... not following instruction? haiz... when u step on people's tail... whatever nonsense also can come out de la... shit... haiz....

Some mre, people's favourite even if no do tings also can de lor... still act like very busy... worse is do wrong tings simply act blur, act ke lian, then no fault liao... in then end, i still have to cover for her... FUCKER sia... IF jh really out of interface and she come in ah, i throw letter immediately... suckx... hate her... intially already dun like her character liao, so fake... now worse, dun even like her work attitude... People fake but can work still ok... but people fake and cant work is ass hole... burden people only...

Ok can say i bias.... but then not only i feel that she is incapable lor... whatever the case, i jus hate her la... Bias or what also same.... simply hatre...

I am not lazy!!!

2006-10-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hey, Mr keat.... stop saying im lazy ok... I update 3 entries at a time leh... still consider lazy meh... you wan die isit?

oook... i admit im lazy... dunno wat to write and lazy to think too hard... working has kill most of my brain cells and refuse to think further and causing more harm to it.... heheh... so pls... allow me to be lazy ok?

haiz... in fact i pretty regret taking up this job... super doper stressful leh.. i lost all my motivation... no matter how much i tried i just cant bring back the motivation that i used to have....

I love all the people that i am working with except that xiao bai la... some how or the other i feel that im being aimed... No matter what i do, he seems to be aiming me... making work life even more sian.... ya ya, go everywhere also the same... this i know... so no reminders needed... i am jus nagging... HEY! this is my blog after all.... =p hehe...

The most lovable days currently is weekend... weekdays is sucky... work with a very very irritating xiao bai... haiz... sad case...

But work is still not that bad la.... at least my mr chew is there ah... If he not there, i tink i'll die... he is the only inspiration and motivation for me to go to work.. hehe... muack.... love you mr chew...

Recently having a bit tough life too... quarrel with dar... ah yo.... sad case de leh... but ok la.... everything is over...back in the track...

help!!!!!!!!!!!!! im bored... oh gosh... i cant slp.... and that is the reason for me being here typing away... else... you know the answer... and that is spider web... anyway, if anyone comes across blog skin with spider's web and it is nice, tell me the website to dl ok?

since my blog is really gathering webs then i might as well change the blog skin.... rite? so help me keep a look out ok? wahaha....

ok, im still bored, i think i go find game to play again... buai....

reminder: MY BIRTHDAY COMING, I WAN MY PRESENT HOR!!!!

REMINDER!

2006-10-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

Yo... I know November havent reach.... But jus write to remind you people that my birthday is coming... DUN FORGET hor...

I wan my present................ Remember hor....
ps: for those whose birthday I forgotten to wish, pls forgive me... That day i carelessly deleted all my hp notes... and thus, all records are gone... Pls leave a tag for me to tell me your birthday ok? Thank you.... Love you people.... Da ren you Da liang.... hehehe... ops... =)..

Must write in bigger font and bold so that you all will remember... i put in extra effort to remind you all le leh... so must remember k?

October Entry

2006-10-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

Haiz, now I am at home. So sianz. all cos of my back lor... dunno why has been aching since Monday. Went to see the doc yest, he gave me 2 days of mc... then now, im forced to stay at home and rest.

My naggy boyfriend nor... haiz... ok la, he has been treating me fairly good la... cannot say he very good else he'll be proud... haha.... then later he dun treat me nice nice le... boo hoo hoo...
alright alright, I know i change bf very fast... but pls keep this comment to yourself... demoralizing leh.. =p bleah.... This one will be better de la....

Heee... anyway this guy is from my work place de... he is a scheming guy... haha... no la... he is a guy full of surprises... although initially all his plan dun works out... cos i'll just guess it.... But he improved alot leh... scary...

Jus take the occassion of him sending me home liao, say need to rush home for his assignment. Which is very common since he like to do last min work... hehe... then after that about midnight he suddenly msg say he left something in my letter box ask me go see....

When i went down, he suddenly appear behind me, with my fav flower... Lily... Really shocked me... And i'm really very happy... =) But at the same time he lost his shades... very ex leh... =( Haiz.... Thank you darling...

For pictures, pls log on to me friendster ok? lazy to upload here... hehehe.... =) bleah....

September Entry

2006-09-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

Oh ya, dun worry, wun write what i wrote for the august entry de.... cos september i remember at least abit bit lor...

Man, working is sure a tough thing.... hais, students out there should treasure their life as student. Once you started working, you'll find that life is so boring... heeheheh.. i bet many working adults out there will agree with my statement. right? For comments, post it in my tag ok?

Many people has been asking me, how is me n aaron... well, it has become pretty obvious that we broke up... Dun ask me the reason, I find that the reason should be known to the both of us and not shared. which means, I dun wanna tok about it ok? so stop asking le!!!! What has past has past....

Weeeee... I brough a new phone this month, yeah... K800i.... cool... love it alot... heehee... buy my k800i while ryan buy his n73.... both phone quite comparable wor... but still doesnt matter.... =p I change my phone good enough liao... so happy.... wahaha...

Ok la, must leave something to write for my next entry. so i shall leave it as it is now... hehe...

August Entry

2006-08-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, totally forgotten what happen in august lioa... i think it is all the same... nothing much to write but work... so let skip august...

Im just writing this entry to satisfy those that has been complaining my blog rusty laio... .... HEE

Updates

2006-07-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

its so long since im back at my homeland... haha,,, been working like shit... working no day n no night... sianz... today leave.... shiok.. sleep till 12pm sia... wahahahahhaha.... revenge on my sleep...

btw, everyday go work at 8.30am then normally work till 8.30pm earliest... tried working till 11.30pm before... haiz.. and thats quite common sia... no choice... make till i quite no life liao,... only work n work.... even on one time have to go back on sat n sun morning worked till 12 midnight sia... tiring... hai... NO LIFE....

need to find back my life... lol.... anyone can do so? help me leh....

sianz... fallen sick twice since i start work... shag... haiz... somemore, on the 1st day of lunar 7th month, i fall sick... how heng can i get,... haiz... till now still not yet recovered sia... haiz... i think i really going to get myself my 4 leave clover liao.... bring me some luck man... haha.... =) must wait till pay come first... now is end of the month.... pretty dry up liao... haha...

btw, i was really very touched that day.... THANK YOU ZHIWEI.... that day was facing some problem in doing something... i msg zhiwei for help... and within 5 minutes, he say i send something to ur yahoo email liao.. hope it helps.... wow... efficient sia... he is jus so powerful... haiz.... can i employ u as my private consultant.... 20 million rupees per years... haha....
i any sense... i appreciated it alot....

Last weekend, my dear didnt book out.. cos field camp... so i went out with shuyu... wahahah.... did some shopping... resulting in a hole in the pocket.... haiz, must curb my spending urge liao... o.. i didnt tok about jin hai... a person that has irritated me quite to the fullest liao... everyday call n msg me till i super pissed off sia... he is my sec sch friend... not very close... then that time we went out together with shuyu... shuyu fly kite left the two of us only... idiot... haiz... ok lor... then he say he like me....

2 days later he say he need some money urgently... ask me to lend him.... innitially i wanna lend him de... but i was too bz to transfer... cos 24 hr like in office... then he kip calling me, messaging, pestering me then make me doubt so much in his words, till i very hesitate in lending him the money... shit la... some more kip calling till like wat... i sick on mc still ask me go out of the house to specially transfer the money for him... kao... all those who knows about it also ask me not to lend him sia... he is idiot la... nv heard before pple can repair bike till 1k de... unless bad accident la... but he totally no injury lor... how to trust him lor... seriously, alot of doubts lor... ?????????
But dun care la... im going to ignore him liao.. idiot... haiz...

anyway tat should be all my update for now lor... =) i jus have a boring life lor...

Idiotic me

2006-07-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

i felt so idiotic... so stupid... i have been lossing things... and now, i felt that i have lost myself... been crying since i woke up... dunno is too tired or wat... dun feel good.... yest went party world with the pplez... scs pals... jiahui, angie, shiyun, eric, derek and rawn... we sang till 1++am ba... fun....

rawn so funny sang 2 chinese song and 1 hokkien song.. so cute... haha... derek also funny lor... die also refuse to take mic n sing... but in fact he is singing la... sit beside him can hear de... jus that he dun wan use mic only.. me also lor... hate to use mic.. .shy... haha... eric is the most vocal among all la... including gals ba... he singing not bad sia... hahaha.... unbelievable....

on the other hand, the gals... wow... im amazed too... angie n jiahui all sing so well... envy sia... haha... but angie like bery tired so nv sing much... wasted.... jiahui really can sing those soothing's song... wow... pro... so emo feeling.... shiyun on the other hand enthu sia... haha... she is the PA of eric... and boy, i think they make sure a good couple... the way they sing and tok so matching... but too bad... shiyun attached liao.. haha... but if u were there last night, seeing the way they sing, one stop the other sing, the other stop, the one start singing again... so you mo qi lor.. wee wee....even derek agree with me.. hahaha....

when reach home, after bathing n such i on my pc n started playing games till 5 am then force mayself to slp... haiz... then woke up at 10 am sia.. man thats tiring... maybe thus i emo....
started crying then now stop le... wanna occupied myself with some things.. else i will any how think again... haiz... some how, i felt so lost... lost in space.. lost in the world of myself... haiz... i jus found out that i lost alot of things this month... like my student pass, my india sim card.... and also myself...

seems like all these things is something that i can nv recover back... haiz... someone save me pls... haiz...

tekong...

2006-06-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

today went tekong... my dear booking in... haiz... i didnt cry hor... although the fact is, i almost did la... i try holding them back... dun wan to upset my dear...

visited tekong... looks like a chalet sia... nice place la... at least wat i feel like... things is new... the bed got spring de leh.. haha... inside still gt pool table all this leh.... nice lor.. haha...

the food also not bad... hope all this that i saw is not a show put up by the army to lie to us la... all i wish that is they are safe n sound... and my dear can adapt... although i know he should be able to de la...

haiz... didnt know i'll be so affected by him... i always tot he go in then go in lor.. nothing de ma... in end... im so affected.. haiz... hope this 2 week can be over soon.. and nothing happens... haiz... dear, i miss u...

A update....

2006-05-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

update of how is my life... well... started work... everything seems ok lor... got friends that i think i can get along with pretty well... and also friends that i dun think i can get along with very well... but wat ever the case... its a new life to me...

now currently no fix location yet... sometime at bedok(HQ), sometime at the paya lebar airbase.... man, both location also very far.... but bedok better ba... more accessible... hahah.... at least i got place to eat... within walking distance, i gt place to eat liao.... not like in paya lebar... must take bus then gt food.... lunch confirm more then 1 hr de lor... cos transport already more then 0.5 hr liao lor... haiz... watever the case... there is no turning back.... jiayou ba....

today went to pasta mania at toa payoh to eat... gosh~!!!~ FRIENDS DUN EVER GO THERE TO EAT!~!~ THE FOOD AT TOA PAYOH PASTA MANIA SUX.... really sux lor... after they change their management... yuckz.... the baked rice that is so sour... cos they put too much tomato base.... and the spag that taste bitter and too salty... man it sux big time man....

and u know, i thinking isit like this all the time or isit because its the chef.... man can be very scary at times... the chef is very horrible... that time make me so scare of him.... like stalker like that... today maybe cos i go with my bf, thus he wan revengue lor... jealous man~!!~ scary....

a sentence for my ger.. ;)

2006-05-19T13:22:00.000+08:00

dear.. decided to drop by your blog and leave a message...

"i love you, my darling..."

:)

*muaCkz* *huGz*

honey honey~!~!~

2006-05-15T14:33:00.000+08:00

recently been leaving in a world of my own.... haiz... dunno la.... find that my insecure self is back... haiz....

been having quarrels at home... relationship i dunno.... seems ok still... but somehow i feel insecure ba.... like all the honey and sweetness is jus before the bitter only... and bitter is coming.... am i thinking too much... haiz....

Wat fruit basket character?

2006-05-15T14:20:00.000+08:00

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3rd month~!!~

2006-05-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

today 3rd month liao...weee.... time fly past.... FASt~!~!! but i like cos im with him.... DEAR I LOVE YOU.... btw dear, its 3rd month not 4th~!!~ heheh....

anyway update on my friends... i gt a job liao... in scs... hehe.... shiok.... finally.... wee... 15th start work... haha.... ok la.... thats all... hehe....

updates

2006-05-02T13:59:00.000+08:00

haiz... been weeks since i last update.... haiz... it hasnt been a great week for me... actually depressed ba... over not getting a job yet.... haiz... i cant work in telestation all my life isnt it? haiz... im tired im sick... somehow somewhere sometime i really feel like digging a hole n hide myself in it... die inside also nvm.... as least it a grave liao ma.... Singapore's lifestyle really is very fast.... time fly like no one business like that... and im still stuck....

how i wish i can relag like someone else hu is always doing so... haiz... stressed.... depressed~!~! depression has caught hold of me again..... haiz.... no where to run... no where to hide.... and some one pls come and save me.... take all my breathe and feelings away...

sick of interviews... sick of waiting for replies... sick n still sick.... haiz... i need to rest.... but where can i rest.... im like a ship lost in the sea... haiz....

Wish me luck~!~

2006-04-19T09:20:00.000+08:00

im going for a interview later.... pls wish me luck.... cos seriously im nervous.... im nv good at interviews... haiz.... lousy me.... haiz... so sad... .haiz.... if i really dun make it ah... someone pls go get a 4 leave clover for me... said to me my lucky charm.... pls.... help.... I REALLY hope that i wun go to the extent of needing it... and do well for this interview..... PRAY!!!~ PRAYING HARD~!~!~

lucky charm

2006-04-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

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busy busy n still busy ~!!~

2006-04-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

recently have been very busy... busy working lor... then the rest of my time with my dear lor... already not spending enough time with him liao due to work.... so sorry... for the very late update of my blog.... =)

haha, recently i have been back.... back working in telestation.... ya, i know i said i wun be going back... but still.... no choice.... couldnt find a job thus work in telestation tempo lor... cannot dun have income coming in ma.... cos gt out must have in de ma.....

sianz.... everyone around me is asking me to find a job quick.... ya... i know... im finding.... its not easy u know.... anyone gt recommendation? hmm.... im getting pretty sick with all the nags asking me to find a job leh.... irritating sia.... hmm....

haiz... recently really very sick of one person.... dun like to do anything bout him.... anything related to him can never be good de.... yet... haiz.... he is jus one irritating person~!~!!~

ps: im not refering to my dear~!!~

WEirdo~!

2006-03-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

define weirdo: weirdo == Lin Lihong....

recently have been havign mood swings.... haiz.... thinking of my dear alot.... stupid idiot.... dunno is he dunno how to care or wat sia.....

like yest ba... yest night good example... haiz... make me upset but sometime and somehow i jus cant blame him lor... haiz.... so.... forget it la....

Lost ~!!~

2006-03-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

i felt so lost.... i only can say.... i hate you... i hate you... i hate you... i hate you... i hate myself... i hate myself.... i hate myself... i hate myself....

hate you... hate you hate you hate you.... hate you... y r u controlling my moods n feelings? i hate you....

i hate myself... hate hate hate hate.... hate myself for being so useless.... all my feelings n mood being controlled by u..... aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............

i hate it... hate crying.... aarrrrrrrhhhhhhhhh.........

im here~!!~

2006-03-22T14:29:00.000+08:00

hey, i havent abandon my blog hor~!~!~!~!~ kity dun say so much... fly my kite... workaholic.... friends also dun care liao lor... u win liao lor... hmph~!~ haha....

actually been spending most of my time with meeting up with friends and trying my best to meet my dear too.... hard time managing the time sia... but well... have to keep a balance ah....

finally im consider free from nyp... hhaa.... got my end of the yr result liao... haha... ok la... not that bad.... i tot will get very bad result sia... but its a ok only hor... not good still... but the result is already out liao... wat to say rite? nothing to say.... haha... well... today spend my time updating my resume... haiz... hav to start looking for a job liao... hmm....

actually dunno wat to say sia... i think i shall stop here ba.... cont to find rubbish to eat.... hehe.... chocolate as breakfast... woo... nice... now lunch? hmm.... chips? ok la... buai.. go get rubbish liao...

finally back!~

2006-03-13T13:36:00.000+08:00

well, im finally back... somehow, i jus think time is not enough leh... not enough... meet this meet that... meet here, meet there... no time.... how can i do it that i meet everyone...??? hmm... well,... anyway, i jus miss singapore... and all my friends... so i like SINGAPORE... more then happy to be back... haha...

my last day in chennai~!~!

2006-03-10T17:59:00.000+08:00

after such a long wait... im finally going back to Singapore.... WEeeee.... i simple too happy... word jus cant describe the feeling now.... its anxious, excited, happy... and somehow abit of reluctant....

anxious n excited n happy cos im finally going to see my parents, my friends and aaron tml... weeee... so happy... excited, anxious..... what will happen when im back? wat will i do if i see my parents? see aaron? see my friends? hmm... will i cry? smile? laugh? or? hmm.... anxious.... haiz.... somehow, i feel that i'll cry when i see my parents cos, i jus dunno... wanna act like a baby to them... childish but hu cares... they are my parents... in the eyes of parents' the child will nv grow old de....

and wat will they say or do? say i fat? say i darker? say i indian looking? really dunno wat they'll see... haha... im jus so anxious... cant wait... wat will they do? all gather around to hug me? kiss me? wat jus will they do? ahhhhhhh.... im really very anxious... will they action n comments be positive? haiz...

reluctant? cos i very scare to face them after 2 months leh... really scare that i break down into tears.. haiz... dunno lor... haiz... hw will me n aaron react when we met after nearly 2 long months of wait... worry~!!!~

but still, i think my anxious n excitment about going home is higher then my reluctance... =)

trip~!~

2006-03-09T12:38:00.000+08:00

hmm, today will be going to mahabalipuram... i forget how to spell... but hope i spell correctly... hmm... hehe... anyway.....

wrote this blog to inform my dear, that i might not reply today... but will reply when i gt home...

dear, i might call u today if i gt top up my card today... =) if i dun top up.. i cant msg u le.... about to no more credit liao... hmm, dun worry ok? =) i'll take care de... hmm......

Shit ~!~!~

2006-03-09T11:59:00.000+08:00

shit, hate this company that im in more and more.... block every single things in the world... i cant even go msn, no more e-messenger... even now blogs i also have to go thru a special way to view them lor... stupid~!~ even my sch website they also wanna block~!~ stupid rite? then how we communicate... somemore still say i not communicative.... shit.....

give me a na. for team work and 2 for initiative? f u... come lor... didnt u think its too much.. hey, i did asked u for work ok? but u drag n drag n drag.... nw become my fault? stupid pple... worse is, wat rites do u have to say i not communicative, u didnt bother bout me... its ravi that i toks to... and he take cares of me... i mean at least in term of coding... u? dun even know wat i did or doing... and alot of times, u not in the office when i communicating lor~!~!~!~ u idiot~!~ hate u leh.........

argh~!!!!!!~

and worse, there is this despicable disgusting, scheming, freaking bitch in the group... that step on others to get on higher in life.... well, u can do it, but rem there will be retribution... wat u planting, u'll get it back de... jus u wait... u'll get the luff now for the grades u having now... but u wait... we'll see hu suffer in the end... toking about that kind of bitch really pollutes my blog sia... forget it... i dun wanna write bout her liao...

ps: all this kind of things is bullshit~!~!~ i'll nv wanna come india to work........ nv~!~!~ FRIENDS, DUN COME HERE TO WORK TOO....

Motives

2006-03-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

must everything done with a motive... cant be jus simple asking or doing only???

im not that scheming lor.. i jus saying hi casually lor.... i dun mean de lor... didnt have any motive.... not asking u to do anything for me lor.. u think too much lor... if u were think that i tok to u for reason/ motive, then i'll nv tok to u again... least say meet....

jus becos of one mistake? then u banned us? come on lor... be fair to us rite? we already did our best to rightify the mistake liao ma... and we didnt do it on purpose ah... haiz... forget it...

you wan to remain like this, i also can say nothing... let it be lor....

~!!~ im insane ~!!~

2006-03-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

i think i really crazy liao.... to wat extent... recently been toking to many pple on msn... like hanxiang (demoted to xiao laugong again), fenni (my fypj partner), jitson (one crazy fellow), amy(my wife), alot lor... mainly is the telestation's people that affected me the most lor... tok about alot of stuff.. including edward too....

quite often pple ask me y i break with edward ba... and hu is aaron... haha... all this question makes me think alot... well, like how is edward now? is he ok? is he drink n smoking like before? is he coping ok? alot alot of question lor.. haiz...

then when pple ask me hu is aaron, seriously.... i somehow dunno how to reply... well, i know he is my bf... but especially to telestation's pple... i somehow leaves a bad impression le ba... like i change bf very fast... ya and true.. me n edward break not long, im with aaron le... but they are 2 diff things lor... cos aaron is aaron, edward is edward...

my break with edward is nt cos of aaron... our relationship in sg was shaking le... we already break before but patched... but the crack is there lor... then when i india, the crack gets bigger as he make me feel that im caged... no freedom, when i bz, he'll say:"u really so bz meh?" i really cannot take it lor... im a typical kite, cant let go too loose and dun hold on to tight... either way, i'll fly off...

haiz, i dunno lor... but i msg edward again today... well, im jus crazy as to msg him ba... stupid... jus asking how is he.... actual fact is asking him to take care of himself, smoke n drink less... but i doubt he'll listen to wat i say... and might even drink n smoke more lor... haiz... he always like that.. haiz... dunno him lor... stupid~!~ but i only can say, my concern for him is only as friend lor...

wat's new?

2006-03-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

wats new? hmm, y havent i been updating my blog? well, im not really bz la... neither am i free la.... jus blogging at another blog... wanna make it to the best... the perfect little world... hehehe....

jus finish my log book, waiting for my pm to be back to let her grade it... haiz... sianz... i hate to write log book de... so boring... well... now finish liao...

relieved is the only word i can used to say... cos yest problem was solved... and yup... log book is done... going back to sg soon... hmm... then back in sg then i shall cont to finish my report and ppt slides... so as for the time being... relag abit ba.. wait till the next appraisal and get shot in the head again... heee.....

oh ya, got my report grading liao... got a "good"... somehow or the other, im still not that satisfy sia... but well.. ok la... better then average rite? =)

hmm, i wanna slp liao... yawnz.... ZZZzzz..... sleepy..... later still have to go spencer plaza... to buy some stuff and change money... haiz... im broke..... no mor emoney liao... need to change somemore rupees.... =) else i think soon, i have to eat grass liao... haha.... ok la, let me rest a while then see wat i can do....

5th ~!~!~

2006-03-06T12:42:00.000+08:00

wooooooooo....... itsssssssss the 5th yest, time really fly very fast sia... haha... but too bad i in chennai... haiz... cannot spend the time with my dear... but nvm la... all the coming days, we can spend together de.... =) hehe......

wat i feel bout this one month? haiz, its full of sweet & sour.... very weird feelngs... like wat i say ba, its love lor... a mixture of feelings lor... someone say before, absence made the heart fonder...... well.......... i agree ba... it makes the heart fonder lor... dear wo hao xiang ni wor...

i know i can be very unreasonable at times and u always have to tolerate with me... dear dear,, thank you for that........ =) ans also sorry lor... =)

sat & sun~!!~

2006-03-05T11:52:00.000+08:00

suddenly lost of words when it come to this sat n sun... suppose to be happy... but turn out not so happy.... every one seems to be very affected by the mood... hmm....

this sat n sun was spend in mahabalipuram and pondy cherry... a okok place lor... but i must really thankz shannon n bridget for bringing us there... taking time off for us... n happy birthday bridget... =)

we are very sorry for making the bday not sure a nice one... dui bu qi.... hiaz...

pondy cheery is a ex french colony lifestyle is very slow... can u imagaine after lunch about most of the shops is close to take naps... then 2-3 hours later then they wake up to do things again... haiz... relag sia lor... over there there is this beach, less of sands, mainly rocks.... the scenery is very beautiful... we stay in a hertiage hotel, wooooo................ on the first sight? "huh? is this really the one in the photos? hmm, so so lor..... " later on's view after opening the window:"wow, it looks very beautiful, opening the window really makes alot of different... nice, worth it ba..."

at pondy nothing much to see... but i quite enjoy it ba... its very quiet and peaceful... a good place to relag.... wooooooooo, not to forget the big lobster that we ate.. yummy... its nice... haha.. 2KG leh.. wowow..... its huge... nice.... the seafood is quite fresh... but i dun like that sear fish... very orginal... hmm... but overall, its very very nice~!~!~ but i guess all the travelling make me very tired ba... so me also very quiet lor... zip zip....... ZZzzZZZzz......... but thats not becos i dun enjoy... me jus tired out le.... sorry~!~!~!~

then we move on the maha.... wooooooooo..... wats there? rocks~!~~~~~~~~~~~ alot alot of huge huge rocks.... wth cravings on them... seeing all the rocks i was like wow~!~ but~!~!~!~! how did all the rock get there.... rocks need minerals to form isnt it? and there dun have volcano, so how to get so much minerals to form the super super big rocks??? and there is not 1 not 2 but uncountables of rocks lor.... where did they came from????

hmm..... it seems that when i here, alot of strangers like to tok to me... hiaz, sometimes really dunno how to reply... cos sometime dun understand wat they saying lor... they like to ask where u from? in those language that is english but dun sounds like english... haiz... and find that pple like to ask and ans themself... haiz...

1: where u from? korean?
me: no
1: jap?
me: no1: china?
me: no
1:thailand?
me: no!~~ SINGAPORE~!

stupid, wan ask but dun wan me to ans... stupid... the funny thing is yest, still gt one ask till so funny lor... ask me if i attached out of no where~! dotz~!~!~!~! stupid... hahahaa.... ah ya, in conclusion, yest really gt many weird pple lor... haiz...

yest, its seems that alot of pple is pretty upset at home.. haiz.... we did something very wrong by mistake... haiz.... we are so sorry... hope today we can do somthing to amend ba...haiz....

haiz~!

2006-03-03T19:45:00.001+08:00

i think i finally calm down le... haiz... i really find that im a bad gf... especially when im in a bad mood.... its worse... haiz, jus like my previously entry... actually wanna delete it... but promise dear dear wun... then i shall keep it lor...

i always say or do alot of hurtful thing during my fit of anger or frustration de.... trying veyr hard to curb them liao.. but its not easy leh...... sorry lor... didnt mean anything... i know i not a good gf lor... jus try and bare with me ok? im sorry lor... really really dui bu qi la... =( forgive me hao ma?

and dear dear, u r a great bf... i dunno about future but till now, u have been a very very nice n patient bf... always there for me... maybe not physically but at least emotionally ah.... somehow the other when i frustrated u always will calm me down de... like jus now, actually was really very very pissed n frustrated, but when i saw ur msg, i jus smiled... serious... u make me feel very pampered ba... let me feel that u r there for me... support me lor...

serious, no lies... no pt lying to u rite? hehe...

ps: im really sorry for wat i said in my previous entry... =( dui bu qi... seeking for forgiveness....

Miracle?

2006-03-03T15:50:00.000+08:00

well, i sure hope there is miracle... yest, it was raining in chennai... yup, raining in chennai... so wats so big deal in rains? well, in chennai its a miracle to rain~!~! well, i do hope like the rain, my package will miracally appear to...... although i know the glimpse of hope is very little... but i jus wanna try....

haiz, been sending mail to singpost... very grateful that they replied to me... and they are helping me to check the things out.... very glad... still like singapore... although i ask yathi to check for me too... but dun really know hows the things going... u know the 5 mins story? haiz... pple that know will get wat i saying la... haiz...

haiz... very sianz~~~! jus finish the appraisal.. think i did a very bad job out of it sia... think get 3 or even lesser this time lor... haiz... very sianz... been working so hard yet, the out come is like so sucky... some more give sarcast comments lor... a part of the conversation....

1: "li, isit u not comfortable working in vms cos mainly guys?"
lihong: "no...." before i can finish..., cant they let me finish my sentences
1: "i think she not comfortable in workin here, cos like compare to aaron, she is more quiet and dun tok to people...."
lihong: "no... " before i can finish..., can dun compare me with him anot~!!~
1: "aaron always will go around poking into the rest...."
lihong: "no...." before i can finish... lihong is lihong, aaron is aaron dun COMPARE~! and i did tok to them, is u dunno only~!~!~
1: "aaron is more vocal"
2: "no as really poking them rite? haha"
1: "no, but he'll jus go ask them wat they doing"
2: "u dun like the indian boys isit?"
lihong: "huh? no... actually i got tok to them when i hit an error or so..." before i can finish...
2: "u see, u must know they also have their work, they can't check with u every now and then, u must go and ask them"
lihong: "i got ask ravi when i have any question..." i know, thats y dun wan bother them, i rather try first~!~!~!~
2: "so wat u understand about the framework? if u hit an error/exception wat will the framework do?"
lihong: "huh? im sorry, i dun get ur question..."
2: "u dun get the ans or the question? if u hit an error/exception wat will the framework do?"
lihong: "i dunno the ans..." actual fact is wat he asking? i dun get it lor... error then debug la...

i hate it... hate it... hate it... cant they dun compare between me n aaron~!~!~ aaron better so? i admit i lousy, i stupid~!!~! but they dun have to do this to me rite? aaron aaron n still aaron.... morale low... pride gt hurt.... haiz...deeply hurt........ my problem not solved, now new problem... hate it......

if this goes on, and i see myself getting more n more like a shadow under aaron, i really doubt our realtionship will goes well... cos pride get badly hurt.... haiz.....

forget it la... i hate life here... i wan be back in sg this minute........ i jus miss singaporean~!~ they make their words true... not like here, do n say diff de,.......... i wan sg~!~~ haiz........ i wan to tok to singaporeans.......... those singaporeans that mean wat they say... will nv steal ur package... and will really deliver ur package... will see the facts before pushing the blame on u...... I HATE LIFE HERE..... I WAN BE IN SG THIS MIN.... THIS VERY VERY MIN......

badly affected~!

2006-03-03T11:49:00.001+08:00

im very upset... very very very upset....... i hate india~!~!~!~! i lost my package~! some idiot send me stuff that is super ex and its lost.... and i didnt get to see it...... super upset...... been crying since i know it.... AND THE SUPER IDIOT REFUSE TO TRACE BACK THE STUFF.... JUS LET IT BE...... WAT THE HELL....

u dun wan to check, but i wan the stuff can? cant u jus make the effort of checking for me the stuff? u made the effort to send me... but it didnt check me, dun u feel upset??? haiz...... im very very upset........ i wan the tigger... i wan the phone..... i also wan the necklace ok? haiz... but i admit la, me more interest in tigger n phone... little or no interest in the necklace.... but i jus wan all of them ok? i dn like pple send me stuff, and i dun get to see it....

me make all the effort to check yet, u dun even wanna provide me the details? haiz..... me really very sad lor... even cry in the sleep lor... haiz....

and pls pple, dun ask me forget it or jus take things easy lor.... u all dun understand the feeling lor......... firstly its the money lor... ex lor, secondly all those stuff is wat i like and he made the effort to send them, at least i should get to see them rite? thirdly, its suppose to be mine~! y should others took it~!~!~!

ya, i'll move on in life~!~ but i still wanna find that package~!~! if u all dun understand then jus shut up and dun comment ok? i dun wan hear any comments about asking me take things easy.... forget it... nvm.... all kind of things that ask me relag dun cry!~~! come on...... that dun make things easier for me~!! i understand u all meant well, but jus let me be ok? jus dun bother about me ok? let me be........

Frozen Kampong Chicken~!

2006-03-02T16:45:00.000+08:00

PoK POk poK poK~!~~!!~ this is how chicken tok rite? i guess so la... me dunno la.. anyway frozen kampong chicken cant tok anymore too...

y im writing this entry? thz to angie lor... for calling me a frozen kampong chicken~!

jus becos, i ate ice cream n i have goosebumpS?? dotz~!~!~!~ she commented~! frozen chicken... then later she added the word kampong~!~! y? cos im thin? dotz...... she say im thin, more like kampong chicken.... then later she added saying.... kampong chicken meat very nice de leh.... although very thin and tough... but very nice leh...

faint~!~!!~~!!! kao~!~! me kampong chicken? me like one meh? somemore is frozen de.,... haiz... nvm... pok pok.... pok pok.... better dun pok pok too much, later pple take me and kill cos now india tg bird flu~!!~!~ help`!~ dun kill me~!~!~!

Everything is changing~!

2006-03-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

in this world, everything is changing..... forever changing..... only changes is the constant in the world... y am i saying this suddenly? well, cos i was browsing the blogs of some people... feel that, they has been alot of changes...... Like yisan........ seems like we al moved on... all has found a new life... life no longer like when we are in year 1.... i once said to zhiwei, i miss yr 1's life and dun wish to move on... and stay on that way forever and ever... dun grow up... dun work............. jus stay in yr 1......... haiz, veyr childish hor? well, u can never understand wat im feeling unless u r me... then u'll understand y am i feeling this way.........

And u know wat zhiwei say? he say he miss those days too... but in life, we have to move on... only when they have become memories then will they become precious.... And we will collect many different memories as we move on in life.... well......... i dun agree.... if life, if something is precious, u dun need them to be gone to treasure them... and find them beautiful... they'll beautiful to u no matter wat~! jus like a loving couple, they du have to wait till one of them is gone then will they treasure them de... thats wat i call precious....

2 yrs has pass since then... and my heart is still there... in the tutorial room 2 yrs ago.. where we having our orientation... where by all the fun joy n laughter remains... and everyone is feeling the same feeling... cry... sob sob.... the more i say, the more i miss them... all the chalets? all the genting trip? all the majong? all the staying overnight at diff pp's house to finish project? all the staying in the sch? playing basketball together? staying outside the lab to use adapter when the whole sch is ghostly quiet, no one? all the ghost photo shooting? haiz.... all the crying we 3 gals share? all the pool session? all the pillow fight?

i miss them... alot alot... haiz... isnt human cheap? only missing the things when they are gone? and they cannt catch those times again? haiz.....

im Crazy ~~! im Evil ~!~ im bitchy ~!!~

2006-03-01T19:32:00.000+08:00

i think i really crazy liao... . can u believe wat i jus done~?! i actually send a web sms to edward~!!~@ asking how is he.... i must be crazy... really crazy....

at first i not sure if he gt reply or will he reply.... seriously i really hesitated in clicking the "send" button for a moment, but instead i jus send out... Before i went to look for yathi... .then when i came back, the conversation was close, i also not sure, if he gt reply.... hiaz....

thus,
lihong: erm, if u dun wan to reply... nvm.. sorry for disturbing...

haiz... i dunno wats wrong with me lor... i feel very heavy....... feel like crying out.... somehow, im pretty worry bout him... especially when i heard news bout him but never really hear it from him.. haiz........ although in the end, he gt reply... and it ended peacefully... but somehow, i dun think he is ok lor... haiz... dunno la....

i only hope that we can still remain in contact as friends.... and he'll be fine... haiz..... Im really very evil~! very bitchhy... always hurting peopple..... haiz..........

Sianz

2006-03-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

haiz, finish report, now do presentation power point~! shit, all have to be done by this fri... sianz lor... i do till very sian lor... haiz......... dunno y today like no good mood like that... although finish report, i should be very happy... well, im not~!~!~

i seems to be angry... but i dunno angry at wat... nope, not her!~! it seems to be a him... but y? i dunno la... haiz... i think i tml will be ok liao la........ haiz.... there dun seems to be any reason y i should be angry too... haiz... =) will be fine de... haiz...

ps: hu is the he? not for u tp KNOW~! dun KPO~!

TeleStation~!

2006-03-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

today was talking to junhan n novie.... haiz... i bet u all most dunno them... haha... cos all of them from telestation de.... suddenly i miss them........ miss ah Din, amy, junhan, novie......... well, i also miss chuan wei gege.... haha, i not flower eat hor........ although u say he look like jay la.... me really like jay la...

but i miss chuan wei gege is cos when i first enter telestation and open a counter alone at cwp... junhan, chin chuan, chuan wei and ronald~! they all helped me alot.... from someone that everything also blur blur till someone that knows almost everything of mobile~! all thankz to them... life at telestation was so enjoyable... cos all i do was jus sit down at the counter, tok with them over the phone thru out... haha.... call one after the other... hehe... chuan wei gege is the nicest... next is junhan... hehhee....

those time very fun de.... when on the line, we'll kip say hold on... fei ren..... that mean customer is here... when customer ask more then 2 question, we'll hang up the phone... but less then 1 min, we'll call back again liao... cos the customer go off immediately after we hang up... like purposely de... hahah... then we'll say "fei ren"~! haha... funny...

then work rs, we'll always kapo things de.... haha, from swendsen voucher, to famous amos voucher... haha... very fun... meet all kind of people... acting n listening to songs.... playing singing... all kind of things sia... haha... fun.... opening shop alone... sianz... but also gt freedom la... hey, one person open shop leh... haha.... at amk... nice....

Then every yr, we have the dealers' night... that was all the fun sia... haha.... i gt to know yuxiang that day... haha.... and becos of a small dare, tat guy gave me a pair of earing.... haha......... silly... but the fun was nt there... the fun was drinking and playing crazily... haha... me n jun han running like small kids lor... haha... me n shiyun looking at guys... the guys nect to our table very handsome lor... haha... tall tall de... veyr cute... hehe.... that guy from CnC de... hhaha... ops, me flower eat sia... haha...

everything was fun... well, thru tele i know alot of pple.. some is customer, some is colleagues, some is from the place i working with... like CWP's popular... i gt to know many wonderful pp... like hao jie, alvin, cai hui and those aunties... haha... amazing how they treat me... especially when my hp kana stolen tat time, and i cry till so chiam... haha... funny lor... paiseh, crying in public....

thru out telestation, i also went into many relationship: alvin, edward, haojie and yuxiang.... alot hor? me so flirt rite? haiz....

seriously i like the freedom and fun of telestation, although i always complain... but opening shop alone, counter and rs is very fun de lor...

i thinking whether should i go back tele to work after i go back sg before i get a job... haiz... but like wat junhan has said :" things has already turn sour le, y still wanna go back..." haiz, he refer to sour cos of me n edward, n me n yuxiang... things has turned pretty ugly after me n both of them ba.... haiz... i understand this pt, but i like the environment there ah.. with amy and all.. haiz... but then.. haiz.. i dunno la... can someone tell me should i go back to work? i wanna work but scare of the mouth of "c...." and "j...." lor.... somemore, "c....." dotes so much on edward... haiz.... and i also dun wan complicate things lor.. cos me not sure, me n those guys really over le ma.... hia.z... SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?

ps: to work in telestation suppose to know max online, cable tv and mobile... all 3... but me only familiar with mobile... haha... max online abit, cable hopeless... although i work a yr liao.. haha, me lazy la...mobile so long nv do liao, dunno if i still rem ma... haha...

yawnz~!~

2006-02-28T11:33:00.000+08:00

so lazy to start on my report sia... yawnz~!~ very tired.... yest rushing for report... well, didnt slp as late as someone..... but im jus tired..... hmmm.... india has collected another of china'a national treasure le... thats me == panda.......... one of the reason y i like the show "tara panda"... the other reason isbecos it has the ability to make people slp.... hehhe... yawns~!!~! okok, im a lazy pig la.... cannot ah? bleah.... ok la.... me dun wan tok cork liao.... better start my report again liao... today due leh.... me still finish only one half leh... stupid~!~ draft only, yet must do till like complete like that... yawns~!!~ tired~!~!~

no matter wat~!

2006-02-27T13:36:00.000+08:00

bitch~! if u think u start to change nw there is use~! i can jus tell u forget it~!~! F*** off.... wat u do now has no use at all.... jus think of how i treated u before.... i get pissed then treat u better... thinking dun be so bad... during that time y didnt u change??? change now? dun act in front of me la...

make till everyone so pissed liao then come act!~ come on... u r jus a crod~! and i hate people like u....

nv will i be so stupid to pity u again... then treat u good again~!~!~ i wun be so stupid~!~ u wanna mess with the limit, well, congrat, u have reach the limit!@~!~ fake~! so, a awarning to u~! stay away from me..... DUN COME FAKE WITH ME~!

I duN waN be A gal next life~!

2006-02-27T13:09:00.000+08:00

ps, this entry may seems gross, for those that dun wan to read can dun read de~!

haiz, i dun wan be a gal in my next life.... a gal jus simply suffer too much!~ y i suddenly say this.... first ting, i having my pms noW~! hmm.... it suckx lor... seeing it early in the morning... suffering the pain that it gives me........ then have to force urself to avoid food..... like ice cream, cold drinks all this~! the feeling simple sux.... painful if u forget to avoid them~! :( well, the pass few days, thats wat i suffering~!~!~! pain~!~! and the pain can kills u lor.... arghhhhhhhhhh....

haiz.... seeing it early morning jus make my whole day so sianz... jus imagine, cutting ur fingers early morning n u see alot of blood... hmm.... its like yucks lor.... then u'll goes like: "F***, wat a day~!" right? maybe without the F*** la... but u'll feel sianz de lor....

because of the "blood loss", u'll feel tired n sleepy lor... yup, tat's wat i feeling nw......... ahhhhhh..... sianz.... yucks.~!~! i hate being a gal~!@ hmph~!

besides that, y must women have to give birth? 9 months of pregancy? errrkkkkkk......... pain again~!~! and food avoidance again~!~!~! eeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr.......... its so unfair.... and soon, gal might even have to go ns? so wats so nice bout being gals? nowadays, most women worked to support the family too... so? wat the benefits? dun tell me bout the law ok? its bullshit~! cos, if u think being guy is harder, try being a gal~! how? cut urself once in every one month, let it bleeds continously for one week.... having to change the bandage every few hrs~!~! try la~! see hw troublesome it is.... hmph~!~@

somemore gals still have to mind bout their weight, too fat no one wans leh,.... so pity~! ahhahahahahahaha.... i hate being a gal.......

hmph~!~!@!#!@ next life, if i can choose, i rather be a pig or a guy, nv a gal... y a pig? well, a pig will nv need to bother if its fat or not ah... the fatter the better, get killed and theres a next life liao... isnt it good? and can get to eat food... jus eat n slp... haiz... somemore, nw pigs also can fly(air pork) and pigs are eating better food lor.. .so good... so be a pig~!~! a guy, guys always get the freedom they wan~! me? no freedom cos im still a gal after all... jus like nw, my bf is always saying dun out alone, u r a gal... be carefull... blah blah... noisy~! next life, i refuse to be a gal~!

WeekEnds~

2006-02-26T12:15:00.000+08:00

haiz... sat is jus another very sian day.... cos we are being fly plane lor.... no mahabalipuram trip for this weekend again lor... haiz... and on fri, we msg shannon:

lihong: Shannon, this weekend free ma? Our trip to maha cancel AGAIN... all morale super LOW... have PITY in us and take us go walk walk leh... :'(

shannon: i even more low ah... my mobile break....

lihong: how ur mobile break? we 5 person low leh... plus we are stranger to india.... And india is stranger to us... So have e hearts to leave us to die ma?

shannon: my heart with wife.... will discuss with her and tell u again....

in the above case, i represent lihong= lihong, yt, yana n angie!~ hehee.... 4 person....

well, on sat we were left on our own as shannon's car is still under repair lor... haiz... we went to the saravana again.. haha... nothing much lor.. jus did some shopping... even tok to the manager there... not complain la... jus toking lor.... hehe.... then after that back home lor.... me lazy to cook, so the cooking was done by yana n yt(who is reluctant to cook)......... well, they didnt burn the house la... haha....... everything went smoothly... the outcome was very nice too.. the food taste nice... serious, no lies.... =) ps: so like that i can retired soon, u all can cook more often... ok? hee....

SUN:
sleep till very late... lazy... stomach crump........... ouch... so lie on my bed dun wanna move lor... hiaz... till very late... then finally gt up, thinking where to have lunch.... hmm, then found out all pretty lazy to go out... so lunch will be maggi!~~!~! haha.... nice, i love maggi... well, then after maggi, decided to rest a while before going out... so in the end, we 4+ then go out... go where? SARAVANA AGAIN~! haha, cos we got something that we miss out of yest's shopping trip...

then after that, decided to go korean to have dinner again... but then on the way.... when 5 of us was on 1 auto... yt's sitting on my leg... WOW heng, cos she is not fat, else die... haha, she is very light although she always complain she very fat la.... while on the journey, shannon call us... haha, yeah~! he call means got good news liao... heheh.... he told us not to go korean, he bring us out to have nicer food... wweeeeee............ soo happy... haha, shannon is the best liao.... haha....

then we go to shannon's house first..... woo... we had bobo cha cha... cooked by them....... omg, so nice... so long nv eat liao... yummy.... heaven sia... haha, then we went out to dinner with one of their friend (andrew).... andrew was a very nice guy... very friendly.... haha... very funny too... looks like shannon sia... i wonder if they are brothers.... haha.. we drove far out from the city ba... half way to maha.... its a restauarant call "farm house" haha, the environment is super nice lor... very very romantic de feeling.... nice... heheh... the food was not bad too.... pretty nice... except for one dish.... the grilled chicken... omg, its so salty.... yuckz..... like eating salt like that... haha....

the dinner was very nice.... haiz, like usual, shannon will tease us.... then this time, shannon was complaining i too thin, i was like if i cont to eat... then too fat no one wans how? then this time when i say this, Bridget was saying hu dun wan u? like hinting me hu is that someone like that.... ahhhhhhhhh paiseh~! haiz...

then shannon say: he dun wan u? ask him look at himself first la....
lihong: cont to eat... head low low... very paiseh.... ah yo..... (thinking: well, maybe one day he really dun wan me how? haha... possible?)

after luffing.... all of us, yt, yana, angie n me cont stuffing all the food down our throat... cos after we finish, we still left with alot lor... then no one wans to eat anymore, then we all tot throw away very waste lor... so we all stuff them down our throat lor... haha, well, at least no one throws up lor... hehe.... then we got home le lor....

recently found that i more n more emo sia... haiz... miss my family members n aaron more n more sia... after i gt home, i jus sat down n listen to music, then tears jus seems to flow down.. haiz... me jus being emo lor... hiaz... crazy liao........ haha....

congrats~!

2006-02-25T03:40:00.000+08:00

congratulations, dear.. for your 100th postings and, the completion of your assignment! :P

oh well, i told you tat i will be doing another posting, and, here it is!

one more day down... and, we are nearer to the day both of us are looking forward to... *grinZ*

hope everything goes smooth for you till your return...

and, after your return, hoping that everything will go even smoother! or, better still, be very smooth! :P

dun know what i am talking about myself... just feel like entering a post.. ;) *huGz* *muaCkZ*

omg~!

2006-02-24T19:42:00.000+08:00

today so many ups n downs.... hmm, finally ravi came to check my stuff le... hahahaha.... cos i went to him again lor.. here, u can never wait for things to come.... it'll nv come de.... haha.... i ask him, he seems so not happy... make me so nervous n scared sia... later he say not satisfy with my job how?

cos he say:"be at ur desk..." with a very fierce face lor... haiz....

then i went back to my seat lor... and wait.... 5 mins and he come liao.... still with a very fierce face....

my heart was like racing against the clock's second hand like that.... wanna die sia...

then i ask him have a seat... then he simple coldly reply:" nvm jus demo" and cont standing...

i was like " ok................"

then demo lor... registration first... then login... SHIT~! i forget wat i enter for registration jus nw..... haha, have to look into database to see the email all this liao... stupid~!~!

after login, show forget pwd... and finally wait for him to say something....

ravi: "cool" =)
me, feel so relaxed.... haha, then he say maybe i should try another framework~! omg~! haiz, dunno is good news or bad news... .hmmm...... monday start new framework... start with 'T' de.... but dunno wat isit... .hmmm... at least this sat n sun i can rest liao... haha... relax.... weeeee... but this weekend no maha trip le... sad case... we see wat we do ba... =) go home liao lor~!! today skip lunch, nw super hungry sia.... hehehe... haha, go home eat snicker first before start cooking, else i'll faint inside the kitchen sia.... =) hehehe.....

ps: how i wish my dear dear can share my joy nw.... =)

my number 100th entry

2006-02-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

for my number 100th entry, i decided to put a song... very nice....

李圣杰--不顾一切的爱

当你边飞边流下泪滴
我不认为谁变了心
你不过是累了去旅行
而我是家永远会等你

听说你的爱碰上雨季
又湿了又冷生了一场病
心疼的我想给你暖意
倔强的你不让我走近

月光在你眼里你说
你没资格让我呵护疼惜
就算我真能抛弃一切
你又怎么去战胜自己

不顾一切的爱才算是爱
从来没有感慨一路走来
不记得悲哀只记得愉快
总想为你实现你的期待

不顾一切的爱无可取代
所受的伤害都像是告白
我不走开等你随时再回来

haiz, today i think i very emo.... been listening this song for more then 10 times liao... haiz... isit sick people is more emo?? well, dear, i miss u........ really feel like crying nw.... well, i already cry liao.... after reading yt's blog... the most recent entry... although it was yest's post, i today then read... thz gal... but im strong.... jus that recently very emo only... dun worry, will be fine de... haha... =)

GO NAN NIU~!

2006-02-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

DEFINITATION OF GO NAN NIU~!~! A COMBINATION OF A BASTARD CUM JERK AND A BITCH CUM SLUT~!!!!! FUCK OFF LOR..... DUN U PEOPLE UNDERSTAND WAT IS BEING UNIQUE???????? EVERYTHING ALSO WANNA COPY.... COPY ALREADY VERY BAD ENOUGH LIAO... COPY STILL WANNA COMMENT ABOUT THE ORIGINAL~! NBCCB........... KAO, I THINK I VERY VULGAR... BUT TO PEOPLE LIKE THAT, THEY ARE JUS TOO MUCH!~

WELL, I ADMIT I LOSS LA~!~! ALTHOUGH I AM VERY BITCHY LIAO.... BUT DIDNT EXPECT GT SOMEONE WORSE THEN ME LOR.... FUCKER~! JUS FUCK OFF LOR... DUN ACT INNOCENT LOR.... U R NOT LOR... GT SO MANY GUYS WAN U COS THEY BLINDED BY UR ACTING NOT BY LOVE LOR....

DOESNT MATTER LA, THE GUY ALSO NOT MUCH BETTER LA..... REALLY JUS A HEAVENLY MATCH.... JERK CUMS SLUTS~! WOW, HOW CAN IT GET BETTER~!~

KNBCCB....... I THINK U ALL VERY GOOD LOR... NO 2 PEOPLE HAS MAKE ME SCOLD VULGARITY FOR SO LONG LIAO.... EVEN GT ALSO F AND CCB, U ALL MAKE ME SCOLD EVERYTHING THAT I KNOW~! SMART~!

PS: BITCH~! DUN MAKE ME SLAP PEOPLE LOR... U ALREADY PUSH ME TO THE LIMIT LIOA LOR... IM NOT ONE PERSON THAT CAN BE MESS WITH DE LOR......... U GOOD TO ME, I'LL BE GOOD TO U......... U BAD TO ME, I'LL MAKE SURE, U PAY DOUBLE~!!!~!~ YA, I AH LIAN SO? EVERYONE GT 2 SIDES LOR, U WAN THE UGLY SIDE, THEN DUN REGRET~! NBCCB............

eArlY mOrNinG~

2006-02-24T12:29:00.000+08:00

well, today morning, woke up to cook breakfast again~! hmm, well, to clear something from the fridge la.......... haha, a simple one, but still that also means less slp for me... yawn~! im tired... haiz... early morning n im yawning away... that is not good......... haiz... well....

ANGIE HAS DIM TO BE A BLUR SOTONG WITH SMELLY MOUTH~! HMPH~! well, dun mean i hate her, i still love her, she is my dear leh... haha... blur sotong, y? i guess i dun need explain bout this liao...with smelly mouth? haha, no~! she dun have bad mouth la... at least when i tokin to her, i didnt smell anythin la... anything closer, i didnt try~! COS WE DIDNT KISS~! haha, so y smelly mouth~! today i decided to wash the dishes... then she say dun wash la, later me become like her, all my nails crack~! i was like saying "dun anyhow say hor~!" my nails is my bao leh.. haiz... then today when reaching office, i really find that my nails really crack!!! :( stupid angie, i hate u~! u smelly mouth la... haiz.... hahaha, but forget it la....

first thing i do when i log in the computer is to sign in msn like usual, then visit http://www.ronforlife.blogspot.com........ then finally next is http://www.actblur06.blogspot.com......... yup.... u are rite, thats my blog... haha, and today i gt a new author in my blog... well, tats ah ron... haha.........

dear, im really very happy to see the entry........ "YES! i feel the same way too... and wish for the same too.... well, 16 seems long but time seems to fly when we toking sia..... then seems to crawl when we put down the phone sia.... miss u so so much......... haiz..... well, lets jia you hao ma? haha.... i love u too......"

to someone special... :)

2006-02-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

16 days is a period neither to be deemed long nor short...

but, to me, 16 days seems to be everlasting...

from the time i know you, till now, everyday had been an experience to me...

may it be sweet, sour, bitter or even hot, every moment of it seems to be something which i really do cherish...

there are times whereby i may not turn out to be the way you want me to be... during these times, i hope you will show patience to me... ultimately, i m still learning and trying to be a better bf...

i hope things will be ever lasting.. just like the current time seems to be...

and, i wish you feel the same way to...

i love you... :)

p.s.: no.. i did not post this posting into the wrong blog... :)

WeeEEee....

2006-02-23T14:58:00.000+08:00

AMAZING~! i feel so proud of myself nw.... haha... u know y? cos i complete my job 3/4 liao.... haha, and its suppose to be better then expected... hahaha... y?

cos, im told to do a registration n login... sounds easy rite? well, doing with struts? kill me man... haha.... anyway i suppose to use hashmap de... but instead i use db.... cos hashmap really dunno... but ravi say hashmap easier... so ask me do hashmap.... then when i done with hashmap then do db....

and so, i listen to him lor... try hashmap... dododododod.... 1 whole week trying n trying... still cannot~! give up~!~! try db.... although its suppose to be harder, but i know more bout db ma.... so i try... and guess wat~! i complete it in 2 days~! lol.... jus too happy lor... cos i gt a bf that helps me alot... cos he gt a example... and it acts as a good reference lor... haha... and i complete it.... haha... within 2 days... and these 2 days im sick.... actually less then 2 days... is 1.5 days... haha, cos today havent end yet, jus started.......... lol............ haha......... im jus so happy......... im not the useless n hopeless after all............wahaha.............

later ravi then come see, hopes its wat he wans ba.... hahaa..... so happy......... muackz~! thz aaron..... love ya.... hehe.... ops, too excited, forget im sick, should have too much big action, or i'll go giddy again... haiz... giddy......... hahhaa, but im still happy... despite that im sickk........ lol....

Im A BiTcH~!

2006-02-23T12:26:00.000+08:00

oh yeah~! i really think i have the recovery speed of a dog~!!!!!!!! haha, im a bitch ma (stated by many)... of cos la... haha....

although not totally recovered... but i think about to liao la... flu not so serious liao... but i think fever ma? hmm... still gt some virus fighting inside my body... woooo.... feeling giddy sia... haiz...

but my sore throat ah~! lost my voice.... nw i sound so eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrkkkkkkkkk..... er xin sia... haiz....

haiz, in my head, in my heart, i still feels very heavy.... well, still disappointed ba... seriously... tears can still roll ba... trying to control... haiz.... it makes me feel weird... any point in continuing? well, i dun wanna think of this at the moment... cos i still sick... and sick pple cant think very well... i dun wan make any decision nw, i dun wan regret.... its jus one thing only, i cant judge jus like that.... not fair~! cos there is good time too ah.. forget it la... haiz.... nothing to think bout.... i'll forget soon de... STM ma... haha.........

hmm, i cant start struts nw... i'll mess the whole thing up de... cos feeling giddy.. haiz... nvm... i'll do it later... =)

hope tonight, i wun get gang rape again~! lol....

ps: no choice if ur bf is a wood block rite? hee...

WaT a DaY~!

2006-02-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

well, how should i start? hmm, today was such a "nice day"~! haiz... came in office, with a serious flu... and a bad sore throat but im still saying im fine.... well, lihong's terminology:

- im fine = Well, im not that fair... but u can do nothing bout it... so fine~!
- forget it = jus dun tok bout it FOR NOW
- im not angry = im only slightly angry but i'll be FINE later....
- FINE~! = means im pissed.... so F*** off ok?
- i'll try = ok, i'll do it....
- nvm = well, no pt cont saying/doing since u'll nv understand
- u dun understand me = im disappointed, u didnt show me the concern that i wan ???

the list carry on.... anyway, i started doing struts again... using database this time... haiz, after being said by ravi... well, in the end, i manage to enter data into the database liao... now lift login... sianz... haiz.... thats all for office....

haiz... my flu killing me... use 2 pack of tissue... rub till my nose wanna drop liao.... hiaz... stupid flu...

back home, i feel really terrible, so requested not to cook... well, so we call Mary Brown lor... eat tilll wannna vomit... well, no appetite ba... cos from flu n sore throat upgrade to flu, sore throat n fever liao... and i feel my fever quite high lor... haiz... terrible.... the feeling sux...

really miss home at that moment... hoping that someone will sayang me... well, somehow, i jus cant get that kind of love... the feeling is like last sem during academic that time, when im sick and the one that hope to be there was away~! well, i think peiqi will get wat i saying... The feeling is the same, but the person, i hope for is diff~~~~ But the situation is same, slightly diff.... the person still say, he trust that i'll be fine, cos im strong~! WELL, IM NOT~! the feeling sux when i hear it ba... totally speachless....

haiz.... then i jus lie on the chairs, feeling weak, suddenly the urge to cry came over me... and i went to the room to cry~!~!~ haiz.... cry till very cham.... haiz.... the fever is jus too much for the "little" me to handle ba...

after crying, me feel much better ba, but still cont to slp outside on the diner table... hiaz.... but somehow jus couldnt slp...

so wake up n tok to yana.... haha, regretted my decision~! cos the gal later on like gand rape me like that.... omg~!~! help~!!!! they wun wan me de la... they all straight de... =) jus that i dun wan eat medicine all forcing me... trying to open my mouth by force to let me eat the medi.... but im stubborn, so simply refuse to eat~! in the end, i carry my pillow n ran to the toilet~! well, yana still giving chase... and i simply cannot handle that liao... i broke out in tears again~! haiz, today im jus a cry baby..... and yana so guilty that she ate the medi herself.... silly gal~!

im not angry with her at all... jus feel weak n all the strugglin is making it worse lor... haiz... then we went back to the sofa n tok since i still cant get to slp... hhaa... we tok till 12midnight lor... haha... by then feeling slightly better liao...

WaT sHouLd SaY?

2006-02-22T11:34:00.000+08:00

im stressed~! super stressed~! plus the fact that im sick makes me more emo~! crying out in the office~! yup, thats wat im doing........... hey im jus a gal~! a stupid, silly, hopeless gal that ends up in india for dunno wat reason~!....

and all i wan is jus go back nw.... even if i means a fail in ipp and repeating ipp...... cos i going to breakdown le......... seriously, i cant take it anymore.... everyday is struts, struts, struts and still struts~! i going crazy liao lor.... trying ur best but people jus come and say: "so how? enjoying life?" in a damn sarcast way when asking bout my progress........... F*** lor...... ya, im using msn~! but im doing my work lor...... and its not easy lor~!!!!

im already very weak in programming le lor.... doin in struts didnt helps lor.... it make things worse lor... my grade since yr 1 has been Ds and Cs for programming de lor..... ahhhhhhhhhhhhh............. its jus so wrong to put me in here lor.... it jus wrong for me to come india~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how stress am i? wat u think? dreaming of sql even in my slps? thinking of struts even when i slping.... suppose to be resting since i sick~!!!!!~~ SO HOW STRESS AM I????????????? AND STOP TELLING ME "JUS ENDURE, ITS ONLY A FEW DAYS LEFT!!!!!!!!" TO ME ITS ALL BULLSHIT...........

PS: AN ADVISE TO ALL, STAY AWAY FROM ME TODAY~! IN A SUPER BAD MOOD...

winnie the pool~

2006-02-20T14:29:00.000+08:00

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

Found this test while blog reading... i think i too emo today, so should do something less stressful, so decided to do this test.... im slow? well... nvm ba... let it be... =)

Below is wat people thinks of me.... hmm... some of the points i dun agree sia... what u thinks leh... if u dun agree, pls go http://kevan.org/johari?name=actBlur06 to make ur say ba... =)

Arena

(known to self and others)

bold, complex, sentimental

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

able, brave, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, confident, energetic, extroverted, friendly, giving, happy, helpful, independent, intelligent, kind, logical, loving, mature, organised, powerful, responsive, sensible, silly, spontaneous, trustworthy, warm, witty

Façade

(known only to self)

observant, self-conscious

Unknown

(known to nobody)

accepting, adaptable, dependable, dignified, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, knowledgable, modest, nervous, patient, proud, quiet, reflective, relaxed, religious, searching, self-assertive, shy, sympathetic, tense, wise

All Percentages

able (8%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (37%) brave (12%) calm (4%) caring (45%) cheerful (37%) clever (12%) complex (25%) confident (16%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (37%) extroverted (41%) friendly (50%) giving (8%) happy (8%) helpful (33%) idealistic (0%) independent (33%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (12%) introverted (0%) kind (12%) knowledgable (0%) logical (4%) loving (20%) mature (8%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (4%) patient (0%) powerful (8%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (4%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (4%) sentimental (20%) shy (0%) silly (16%) spontaneous (4%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (12%) warm (8%) wise (0%) witty (12%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 20.2.2006, using data from 24 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view actBlur06's full data.

lost~

2006-02-20T12:39:00.000+08:00

lookin at yt's blog... i felt lost.... been trying very hard to be strong... i mean, i dun wanna cry... dun wish to be weak... i know if im weak, pple back home will be more worried for me....... and i dun wanna them to worry for me........ But that doesnt mean that i dun miss them........ i miss them alot........

i miss everyone back home... alot alot lor... =(

=) well, i shall carry on to be strong... haha... i'll be back in sg soon... haha... take care all of my friends.... (dit0313, peiqi, my fypj's lab pple, kitfan, vincent, fi class pple, ah ya....................) too many to list...

ps: But before i end, anyone can help me in my struts n hashmap??? need help.... thz

The weekends~

2006-02-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

haha, this weekend was fun.... although been to the same place... but its jus shopping n shopping... weee... fun... spend alot... i think i didnt buy enough for my friends... forgive me if u didnt receive any present ok? me forgetful la... haha... But i think i buying too much for that special someone and myself lioa... haha... didnt really rem wat i buy for myself liao la.... haha....

Sat:
well, where we went, we went pondi bazzar for the first day... haha, we bought indian tradition costumes... haha, and i bought a saree... omg, hard to wear sia... haha.... paiseh... doesnt matter, cos u all wun get to see me in it de... lol.... NEVER!!!!!!!! hehee....

buying the costumes took us one whole day lor... then we went to buy bangles... it was already very dark then, dun ask me wat time, i dunno.... haha, i dun wear watch de, my hp is still in sg time.... miss sg too much la.... at the usual store... haha... there im being "ka you" again~! and this time was like super bad lor.... haiz.... the stupid guy one moment hold my hand, one moment will accidentally touch my butt... ah.... kill him man... haiz.... angie almost wanna stare the guy to death lor.... haiz... but in india, quite often u'll get ka you de la.... jus that me out of 10 times out, i'll kana bout 8 times de la.... both male n female also gt de... they are scary.... haiz....

Sun:
we went to saravan stores... wee... gt alot of stuff again... then we went to ispanhani centre... haha, went titanic(a inland store that has the setting like on the ship)... haha... the place where yt say she'll get sea sick... lol.... funny gal... hehe.... well, at first tot of buying 2 shirts de... but sad, dun have my size.... and the person's size... haiz... too fat liao~! and didnt see other things that catch my eyes, so i went out to wait for the gals lor... sitting on the floor... then angie came to join us... .

right after they are done, me n angie still sittin on the floor, while discussing where to have our dinner... someone spotted us and named us as stray dogs.... haha, and they are shannon n his lovely wife (a couple that i envy cos they are jus so lovingly)... then after that they invited us to stb to sit down... then like usual, we'll invite them to dinner... hehe, only like that we'll get to try out more new restaurants... haha... =p scheming hor, no la, we like them alot la... seriously we do....

hmm, and like usual, they'll show us views of chennai that we have nv been to.... we went to the fish market... erm, a total diff sight from sg.... total diff~! when i go back then show u all the photos ba.... haha.... alot lor... hehe... we also went to a truely chinese Chinese restaurant.... the food was jus like sg... omg... i miss sg's food... haiz. first ting, i wan go geylang~! i wan to have my chickent liked food~! hey, dun think too much la, i mean frog leg porridge...... yummy... omg, during the dinner, shannon was talking bout eating cats.... i was like.... omg~~~ kill me, i cannot imagine the cat being killed... eeeeeeeeeeeekkk.... and then angie saw tears in my eyes liao... omg~! haiz.. sorry for being emo, but im a cat lover k?

The whole day was fun... but but.... im pretty upset.... or should i say, i very upset? haiz... doesnt matter la... u will not understand... me jus crazy... anyway i already got over it liao.. =)

Missing u~

2006-02-17T13:08:00.000+08:00

Im Missing u~~~ Cant wait For the Hugz to be realistic...~~!!~ miss u~!

True Self~

2006-02-17T11:39:00.000+08:00

haha, hmm... lets start from yest breakfast~! hmm, the night before i slping in e living rm... and angie the squirrel mother slps in the room... hehe, me knock out in the living room ma... anyway, the story is like we were eating and we saw some baby squirrel... so we thinking, angie u give birth to new squirrels ah...

angie: ya lor, i yest jus give birth de...
lihong: wow~! while i knock out in the living room, u give birth ah?
angie: ya lor.. haha......
lihong: but~! how u get the baby in the first place... erm, when? how? with?
angie: erm, when u knock out lor, with the squirrel father lor...
lihong: omg, u must be very tired.... and hot~~ lol... haha....

everyone luff like mad....

ok, then back at home after work, in the kitchen... as the floor was oily, so we started ice skating again (wash floor) while i still cooking halfway, as my hands dirty... so invited limei into the kitchen to help me~! hehehe.. then the nonsense starts: when dunno from where say limei give birth to potatos....... haha...

lihong: give birth to potato? erm, hu is the father?
angie: potato.... haha.......
lihong: but how?
angie: (give me that type of looks) must scrub clean leh
lihong N limei : angie~~~~~~~~~~ u very er xin leh...

end of the story.... u cont the story urself... lol.. =)

Back in sg? wat should i do?

2006-02-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

well, back in sg... i gt so many things to do... haha, super doper lots of kbox session, lots of shopping... meeting back with my friends, rebonding, wooooooooo......... alot sia... not to miss out, meeting my dear, spending time with him... haha, impt leh....~!!!!!

then also need to plan for trips.... like to the zoo, sentosa, genting? wahaha... omg... jus now toking to nigel... tok about our trips to genting that time... omg, i miss that time....

i rem that time...

took a bus to genting at night... then ended up there early... and the bus didnt stop at the hotel... stop half was to the hotel... and we have to walk to the hotel... and it was like freezing lor.... cold~ woo.... hu was there? well, there was nigel, erwin, yisan, zhiwei, peiqi, boon, ben, andy, alvin, shilin, clarence, and of course, me myself la... haha.....

we all had so much... sit the swing so many times till wanna vomit... had dunn how many of the corn... wow~! omg... so fun.... then mid night go buy prata eat and play ban luck... haha.... funny... and the buffet with super salty eggs... ahaha.... omg... so fun... last nigh all nv slp... all stay in the room and chat till next morning.. last hr all knock out... 4 person slp on one bed... haha... poor me, slping between boon n ben... kao, all squeeze me... all kip pullin the blanket... haha... so fun.... then when preparing to go back, all wanna slp... omg~! its so fun... haiz.... love it!~!

i wan go genting~!... heheh.... being with dit0313 always means fun... i miss them... omg... haha....

BreakFast~!

2006-02-16T12:18:00.000+08:00

wooo, today no more bread, so western breakfast again~! haha... today everyone same, except limei!~!~ wait, me no boycott her!~ wait till hear finish la.....

today we all had fish filets, baked beans and eggs.... everyone have the same... but everyone except limei have tomato eggs... haha... limei have scamble eggs... haha... AND THE EGG IS COOKED BY ANGIE~!!

haha, first time angie cooked in india.. not cos she lazy.. but i ban her in the kitchen.... cos she too blur, dun wan her to get hurt... haha... wan get hurt, me alone is enough liao... haha... anyway, u all know how to cooked nice scramble eggs?

well, dun wan give whole recipe... jus some tips la... hehe... dun cook the eggs till too cooked~! add some milk and salt when beating the eggs... it'll make it taste better... lol.... =)

ps: anyone has the recipe for risoto? i also forget the spelling liao.. i miss it~! pls help me find ok? then email me... appler_06@hotmail.com thz, or msn me lor... same add...

Recipe Time~

2006-02-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

wooo... i thinking of putting recipe liao... haha, well, its new... the first time i try out this.... although seeing my daddy cook it a couple of time... haha, here goes the recipe... i got time then i upload the photos of the recipe that i cook ok?

ingredients:
- potato (slices, not too thin)
- sugar
- dark soy sauce
- oyster sauce
- tomato sauce
- garlic (chopped not too fine alot)

steps:
1. deep fried the potato till the potato is crispy but not too dried....
2. put a small of oil, fried the garlic till the smell out....
3. then add tomato sauce, oyster sauce, dark soy sauce and sugar....
(the sauce should be black in color, tomato sauce dun put too much, i cook by
agar agar de, so cant tell u put how much exactly, taste urself la.. hehe)
4. add the potato in after u get the right taste of the sauce and fried till
all potato is covered with the sauce....

hehe, the potato is ready to serve... have yet to give a name for this dish? any recommendation?

1st Entry of the day~!

2006-02-15T16:16:00.000+08:00

haha, must be wondering y i today no entry rite? well... i have ran out of things to write sia... haha... today whole day do struts, haiz.... met new errors.. sianz... the yest was solved liao... the solution was create a new project with a diff name... then it works liao.. lame rite? same ting leh... waste my time sia... haiz...

today's error is this stupid thing refer to validate.... WTH, dun wan go to my validate method... stupid thingy... haiz, nvm la.. so far... jus try my best lor... tats the only thing i can do rite?

anyway toking bout running out of topic... hmm, are we running out of topic between us too? well, certainly hope not... toking bout hugz, will we really do it? well, jus leave everything to fate ba.. hope we wun act like strangers when we back ba... this is wat i scare of most~! haiz.... praying for the best lor....

erm, jus wanna say sorry to the gals... i think i jus now really very fierce... sorry~! dun mean it de ok? accept my sorry? haiz....

getting crazy~!!

2006-02-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

omg, i getting crazy... why the hell... struts sux like hell lor... kip giving me the stupid error... ahhhhhhhhhhh............ after lunch have been working with it lor... worse, i accidentally deleted my project and i mean not even found in the recycle bin lor......... idiot~!!! wat does it mean by error in creating beans.......... hai.z..... nvm... jus log in to whin... go back to work liao... dun care~! i will work it out~!.... And i'll worked it out~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

valentine day~

2006-02-14T11:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine day to everyone~! especially my dear... hehehe.... talking about valenting day, i dun think i normally celebrate it... i think so far only one ba.. heehehe.... well, i am a gal of course i wish to be pampered or lets say being loved too... but normally i wun have a valentine at the moment of this time de la... hahha

anyway this year, i have a valentine... but we are miles apart... omg~!~ so far.... well, nvm la... its the heart that matter... if our heart is close, then we are close... but even if we are standing right infront of each other but our heart is miles apart, its worse~~~!!! right? agree....

if u are happy, anyday can be valentine day de.... hehe... well, i believe that our heart is close... hehe...

yest, dunno wat im thinking, i actually put my fingers into the boiling oil while i was frying something.... ah~!! its painful... BUT STILL I REFUSED TO PUT MEDICINE! cos like say: "I DUN CARE, I DUN WAN........................" after that still cont to cook, didnt even bother to wash with water first... ah ya... not the gals bullying me like step mother la... jus wanna finish my cooking lor... haha... nothing that serious, dun even have blister... somemore today ok liao... told u liao ma, i scare cold not that scare hot de.... the finger already cooked liao, so no more feelings le.... haha...

the burned was nt as painful as the cut~! HUH? wat cut... thz to our angie jie jie lor....
senerio: The door bell ring, angie first to see hu it was... oh, it was the cleaner coming up to change the bed sheet....

angie: "oh... come to change..... change the... change the.... change the.... "
lihong: "u know change y dun open door, daze there for wat~!"
lihong: hurry open the door... and ends up kana cut by the door...

all thz to angie for being in daze... me kana cut... haiz... well, small cut... abit of blood only... nvm la.. i also cannot donate blood yet... cos i go back need to rest for dunno how long then can donate blood again~! haiz... long wait... i wanna donate blood.... dun ask y i like so into donate blood... well, i find it meaningful ba...

ps: dear, i love u... hope things will go for the better when i back... lets jiayou together ok? =)

Monday Again~!

2006-02-13T12:56:00.000+08:00

woooooo..... its monday again~! can guess i'll having a very happy day ahead... although, someone wun be online ba... but then, i'll still be happy de... COS, I GET MY LAPTOP ADAPTER LIAO!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~ haha, then can listen to my songs liao... wooo... so happy... haha, thz to aaron and shannon.......... u all the best!~ haha...

actually last night, i was veyr angry... although i still am now... but forget it la... i already made a promise liao.. haiz... have to endure lor... but i jus hate it...

today i was toking to my friends... kitfan and shannon la... haha...

to kitfan... we were toking bout friends n lover ba... haha... i have always find that in life, there is not only black and white... there is also shades of grey.... jus like between lover and friends, there is something undefined~! neither good friend, best friend, normal friend nor lover.... jus something more then friends but less then lover....haiz... anyway its jus undefined~! so i dunno how to say it ba... but i only can say, some stay in the undefined forever.... some step back n become normal friends... some move forward and became lovers... so overall, its still up to idividual to fight for wat they wan......... hee....

to shannon... i was telling him that... maybe after this attachment, i might come back to india again.... but maybe not here to work, maybe yes... but i'll be back ba.... i starting ot love india more n more... all the effort of shannon... sat we visited shannon in their office... and he was showing me alot of photos of different part of india... its like amazing... is simply too beautiful... and i'll like to experience the beauty myself... so~! i'll be back in india again~! haha, amazing how much a trip can change u rite? before this attachment, i dun think i'll step foot in india ever in my life... and now im saying that i like it here.. haha, ridiculous.. haha... and i'll be back~! haiz... weird.... humans..???......... haha....

ok la, i stop here liao la...

ps: i still miss Singapore... =) everyone back there.... waiting for pple to fulfil their promises... DUN MAKE EMPTY PROMISES hor... if not i rather not go back at least, i'll not know the truth... rather get lie by u forever then face the truth that u r lying...... i know im being silly but im happy.... =p

Korean Restuarant

2006-02-12T11:52:00.000+08:00

woo... decided to split 2 entry... for the marina beach and the korean restuarant... hee... cos too long... anywaytoday went to korean restuarant... introduced by shannon~! thz shannon.... the food was simply too nice... wee.. haha...

anyway we first enter the restuarant we were abit loss... as in dunno who to approach, but shannon did ask us to approach Capt Giri... and so we did....

upon sitting down, angie made a comment saying that Capt Giri quite handsome... haha, in actual fact, he really is quite handsome la... haa... (ops, i smell Vinegar) nvm... then he said thz...

and so we took out orders... thru out the meal, we were all enjoying... cos the food was like woo... drooling~! haha, hot n spicy chicken with veg... then also gt swt n sour fish... and alot alot of side dishes... its like... wow~! nice lor...

haha, then gt once we order for refill for one of the side dish ru-dan(Braised eggs) which is dark in color la... so we told one of the waiter... and instead of giving us the ru-dan, he gave us 2 white eggs.... haha... omg... its raw eggs that they give us... haha, miscommunication... make me laugh.... of course we change la...

thru out the dinner, i was being teased... cos angie n yt keep saying that Capt Giri kept on looking at me.... pls lor... dotz (^_^) haiz.... crazy gals... haha....

but when we are about to finish out food...

Capt came and say: "so u like my food?"
me: "yup, the food is very good but the share too big"
Giri: "cant finish? but u all seems to be finsihing..."
me: "Trying our best to finish, cos the food really very nice..."
Giri: "haha, u r beautiful.."
me: "erm, thz..."

me paiseh lor... in front of the gals... they kip teasing me somemore... haha...i wanna dig a hole n hide in it sia...haiz... ah yo...

then after that when we leaving.... Capt Giri press the lift for us... haha.. then he was asking us, so we'll be back again rite? how long we'll be staying in chennai... haha... omg.. funny...

but we jus enjoy the food la~! nice food..

Marina Beach~!

2006-02-12T11:36:00.000+08:00

wow.... today went to marina beach.... the second largest beach in the world leh.... omg... the view is jus "WOW"... the whole picture is jus so so so nice... the sand is fine n comfortable... the water is jus so beautiful.... it has been so long that i really went to a beach to enjoy... dun the one tat i went to sentosa la..... cos we didnt really go to the beach... (hehe.... jus skip the seminar....)

anyway we leave house very early that day... about 7.00++ we were out of the house... woo.... then after that, we took a auto to the beach... when we arrived, we were like woo... but stupid la, all of us wearing long pants.... hehe, cos actually plan to go other place directly after the beach de... hehe....

we were playing very crazily there... especially me n yana... omg, dragging each other into the sea... making ourself all wet... at first, we didnt wanna get wet de, cos jeans leh... but in the end, we are soaking... haha.... and we even go drag angie n yeeteng down too... haha, cannot be only me n yana wet only rite? must everything together rite? hheee... shiok~! haha...

then we also bought alot of sea shell from a uncle(claim to be a fisherman) and poor yt drop her camera then it hit the shell, instead of the shell breaking, the camera actually kana scratches... and she is veyr sad lor... spoil her mood... haiz.. cheer up ok?

then we went home.... kao, we reach home super early lor... 11am lor... omg~! nothing better to do liao... all tired... so went to slp lor... (mi stay up to listen to music) then we ordered mary brown delievery for lunch~! hehee... shiok.... after lunch some went back to slp again... then after that we went to the korean restuarant to have our dinner! haha, slp eat slp eat sia...

Lihong == Aaron's shadow

2006-02-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

im a shadow... im a shadow that has no individuality...... should i jus keep very silence and cont to be a shadow? haiz...... even if i were to speak, will i be heard? talking bout loving my darlings becos they are unique, but am i unique myself? im nothing but a shadow... haiz....

First like aaron, i came to india... working in the same company... then of all room, i stay in the same room as him... then i use his sim card (means same number as him), then after that got into the same project team(vms) as he was previously... after then working at the computer he once use (means sitting in the same seat too). now even the way we sit also same~! wth!~

Now even the way i speak is getting more n more like him......... haiz..... im jus nothing but a shadow..... haiz.... nvm...

dun bother about me... im jus feeling low at the moment... maybe cos i tired thus, i behave like this.. no worries, i'll be fine!~ but i not saying all this cos i dun like him... or i hate him.... NO, im jus whinning.... heee... ok, get back to the struts liao... buai.........

A nice breakfast~!

2006-02-10T12:15:00.000+08:00

Yawnz~! im tired!~ its 7.30am in chennai and angie is still lying there refuse to wake up~! hmm... wats the point of setting the alarm to ring at 7am if we wake up at 7.30?~! well, the 30 min is up us to warm up our engine slowly!~ if we heat it immediately with too much fire, its bad for the engine... must warm up u know~! haha, ok, im talking nonsense... the fact is we are jus lazy.... but im execusable de~! i yest wash clothes till 1.30am in chennai mean 4.00am in Singapore leh... tired de leh....

anyway today a tot came over me~! hmm nothign big... a normal pple's tot... i was wondering one my bed, can i cont to slp~! ops, haha... lazy to wake up to cook sia... i mean breakfast~! yup, cook breakfast, cos bread finish liao... then i dun wan them to eat biscuit, simple, cos i also dun wanna eat biscuits... hee.... so wat i cooks? well, for me and yt, i cook egg, chicken hot dogs and fries... ya, lm also eat the same tings as us... heehee... nice, i like the food~! yummy.... and the other 2 gals (angie n yana) have eggs n fries too..... but they have fish fillet and also veg patty.... haha.... ops, forget to take pics of the food... else it'll be nice~~~ let someone see~~~ heee...

after eating, we went out to take auto to work, first time sia.. poor ting is they all dun understand where we wanna go... haiz, no choice, walk back to the house, ask the care taker to translate.... haha... then we got to work~! weeeeeeeee........ haha.. nice... very fast~! and the driver took a diff route that we always took, so its like wow~! nice~! hehe.... and the driver also very good, so i tips him... i like to start my day being nice~!

ps: jus nw one idiot(angie) came down to me, with her hands red n swollen... so careless n scorch herself... stupid.. haiz... somemore still put water on top of it now, like that might have blister lor! plaese take care of urself!~

my childhood~

2006-02-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

omg, reading nassa's blog, make me tempted in blogging again~! so here am, bare with me again ok?

well, jus like wat my friends say about me~! im a super notti, talkative, and a super cry baby~! ops.... yup, a cry baby~!!

till now i still cries alot... still like to cuddle around my mummy n daddy and asking them to sayang me~! then i'll also run to mummy saying: "mummy help me apply medicial oil on my stomach" and she will always say do it urself.... then i'll jus sit there giving a upset face, and mummy will jus say: "faster come la! so big liao still like a kid" then i'll say "im always a kid to u ma bleah =p" heehehe...

i can still rem my PAP school... and till now, i still love the sch uniform... so cute.. like sailor sia, rem the cartoon sailor moon? haha... yup, i feel quite same, jus that color diff sia.... haha... i think my first day there in the sch was a disaster~! y i say so... cos i was like kicking at the door, pulling my mummy's hand refusing to enter... crying out loud..... die die also dun wan go in.... even when my threaten to beat me, i also refuse to enter... but somehow or the other, i gt in la... crying n crying la... haha... paiseh sia...

haha, then my K2 was in my pri sch itself... weird hor... then it was call PY... and im in the class CC... so full was call PYCC... i was the first group of pple that the sch enrol of K2... anyway i was from Northland Pri... i stayed in yishun for 10 yrs before movin to hougang~

and i simply love my pri sch... omg, they have this thing like underweight student have to buy this kind of milk to drink weekly, omg~! i simply love the milk... but i dun rem the brand or wat~ i only know my pri provide them... haha...nice... wish to drink them again, but pretty impossible la hor... i too big for pri sch... (make me thinks of someone's dream yest)

then for pri 1&2 they'll provide us food for us for lunch so that we dun need to go buy... omg.... and the food is always so nice... except the chicken pie la... cos gt alot of peas n corn~! yucks... haha.... although i do take them now, but they are still not my fav....

for my pri 4-6, they have a system whereby we have to take care of the pri 1 & 2 student.... and some how or the other, i'll end up with more then 1 student... haha... although its suppose to be one to one.... haha... the reason most of the time is my friend have to do their duty and cant take care of their kids, but we'll simply love them... cos they are jus so cute... hehe... mine, mostly is gals... and they'll jus come and say "carry me~!" and i'll jus carry them up... haha... but thats the wrong move, once u carry one, the other will say, i also wan!~ so its very tiring... haha... but i love them la... love kids...

but i was really a notti student... all my teacher nv failed to complain said that i was very talkative... haha... =p but to bad... but i had one teacher... a teacher that changes my life... he made me love maths... my P4 maths teacher, he is very tall, thin and looks very fierce... but he is really very nice de... he always say "irene(one of my good friend), lihong! come out.... " then we'll goes like oh shit... haha cos he'll grab ur hand, ask u 2 to hold hand crossing fingers to fingers and he will hold tight.. and u'll like ouch.............. its hurts... but he'll do it with a smile... after that he will ask us do a math sum... haha.. wun scold us de... hhaa... funny... his name is Mr kwok...

And that is not the end to how notti im ok... i even forge me daddy's signature for all my spelling.. so its like, my dad n mum can one whole yr nv c my spelling book de... then when they ask my teacher bout it.. then its like omg~! die~! kana beaten very badly that time sia almost end up in hospital sia... ouch~! haha, but i deserve it la... and that time i'll also lie to my mum say gt extra lesson in sch, but there is no lesson at all... and i'll go window shopping at northpoint with shufen... it 7++ in the morning, so all the shops not open yet... we jus walk n walk lor... haha, bo lioa hor~! hehe....

from pri 4 onwards al my bag is like stupid light de... no books de... actually gt reason de... thats this incident.. i walk home alone one day like usual... its raining like very heavily... and i was not taking any umbrella... and my bag is so heavy, so i was running, and i suddenyl fell... omg my back~! first tine is ouch~

! and i wan to get up quick.. paiseh leh... but i couldnt get up.. cos my bag too heavy.... haha its, like turtle over turn like that.. omg~! haha... i try n try... for 15 mins, still cant get up, and i cant take off my bag, cos too heavy, and on my back leh... untill one auntie happen to walk by and pull me up... its like, i wanna dig a hole n hide lor... omg... paiseh... writing here, i can expect pple to laugh at me liao... but nvm... have a good laugh... hehe.... im laughing at myself too...

my pri sch has a pond in the garden, i rem that was once we were playing near there, and its like one of the guy fell into the pond.. half la... and we were like pulling him up... omg~!~ so funny.. its early morning lor... even b4 any lesson.. hehe, and the pond is like so dirty... haha..

haaha.. enough liao la... the entry is getting abit too long.. haha.. i other day then write bout my sec life.... heee....

ps: u wanna know how i was called in pri sch: da jie, mummy, ah ma, ah yi, hong ji dan, ah hong, cabbage, fei ji chang, xi ye ban... haha.. alot la... haha.. miss pri sch...

Hygiene~!

2006-02-09T12:50:00.000+08:00

oh ya, about yest, im sorry... i think i scared alot of pples.... my mum herself called 5 times yest... haiz, i must have scared her........ im so sorry

anyway, today morning, we only left with 4 slices of bread, so i decided to cook tomato eggs... haha 4 person eat 5 eggs... bo bian, the eggs here are so small~!~!~ haha, toking bout tomato eggs all the time, here comes the recipe lor...

ingredients:
- eggs (of course la, else call tomato eggs, number depends on urself la)
- tomato sauce (have alot)
- water (dun tell me u dun have water, u not in india ba~)
- sugar (optional, some like sweet example yeeteng)
- oil (depends on wat pot u using la, using the one i use now, i need alot of oil~!)

steps:
1. Heat the oil, slightly before pouring the egss down....
2. Keep stirring till the eggs starts to harden like scamble eggs...
3. When the eggs not really cooked yet, pour in the tomato sauce making like the eggs are all red....
4. Fried the egg till it blend witht the sauce, then add water... simmer the eggs
5. Add the sugar to ur tasting.
6. Check if the eggs is dried enough? if it is, its ready to be served!

wooooo............ nice!!!!! yummy....

now? the main topic, hygiene? wat is consider to be clean n hygiene? well, to my concern the basic is:

- throw away the tissue that u use finish into the bin when u sees one
- dry ur hand after u wash them using a cloth instead of tissue all the time,
- flush the toilet after u use finish
- throw away things that is not wanted away.
- for gals, throwing of "stuff" nicely is important.
- dun urine everywhere.

overall, to me hygiene is in such a way that when pple see wat i doing n wat u done, wun be disgusted... as to y i write about hygiene is due to wat i have seen in india... pple urinating in the public is a common sight... and im not talking about kids... im talking bout adults too... and in india, here very hard to find rubbish bin de... and tissue n toilet paper is very ex here... everything is jus so unlike Singapore, seriosuly i hope Singaporeans will follow the things listed about... hygiene is impt!~!

ps: i thinking, i missing u abit too much... u jus offline and im missing u already... haiz... im crazy liao... nvm, after this posting, i need to do struts liao... omg...

Omg situation~

2006-02-09T11:55:00.000+08:00

yest was so omg~ the kitchen was hot~ haha... cos they nearly burn the house... haha... ok la, not so serious.... this is how the story goes~~~

during lunch yest, 2 lovely gals says to me: "tonight u cannot enter the kitchen, yana and me(yt) going to cook tonight!" i was like omg... sure? they can? worries come over me!~ but then, i think i can trust the 2 gals... on the other hand, quite happy that i dun have to cook.. cos after the truma the day before, i really very tired!~ haha........

so at night i was jus helping around..!~ although i not even suppose to enter the kitchen.. but then i insist la... haha... Then when they start to cook, the oil was too hot when they put in the sotong~! then the fire came over the top of the pan, then scare, yana put the saucepan back to the fire then the fire consume the whole pan... and big fire coming up!~ its like, OMG~! scary~! but the fire soon die down... but i think poor yana's hand kana alot hot oil sia... but lucky its not serious, jus some hand hair gone~! wahaha......

then the whole kitchen's floor was like soaking in oil lor... yucks... then tot some effort in chasing people out while i cont to cook and later ice skate (washing the floor) which i havent try before, cos my sense of balance very lousy de...... one day wish to try!~ hehe....

finally manage to finish the cooking cleanign up~! THZ TO MY 3 DARLING IN THE HOUSE, YANA, YEETENG AND ANGIE~~!!! hmm, y only 3??? well, one cant be that flirt rite? and 3 unique pple is enough liao... all of diff charcter... i like unique pplez.....

after dinner, tok to someone for nearly an hour... but duno y, time seems to fly when we toking.. to me like less then 30 mins lor......... at most 15 mins like that only...... hiaz..

ps: took alot of effort to finisht this blog cos gt alot of disturbance.. from msn..... hehe.....

Koffee?

2006-02-08T18:17:00.000+08:00

yup? angie, yes i did said that i wan coffee... can i have some coffee pls? caffine is good... its can cure headaches.. and i think i need them now!~ headache is like bursting my head~! someone help me... pls...

today my headache came earlier... normally it only start at 5... today 3.30 start lioa... ahaha... my brains!~ the headache is forcing me to drink coffee... i rather end up puking and smelling bad then having headache......... so pls, can i have coffee tonight!~ angie, be my coffee gal ok?

stupid aaron, look down on me? not all projects i gt helper ok? i in poly also gt learn things de hor!~ although alot of pple help me along the way la... like edwin during fypj, zhiwei for my projects.... hehe.. but i also gt learn ma!~ stupid aaron!~ hmph!~

okok, i better stop whinning and cont my struts la... omg, the indian music is playing.. haiz... everyday de leh.......... haiz.......... jia you ba...

ps: woooo.....find that my visitor counter's rate increase very fast leh... hmm... does that means im popular? puke! i also wanna puke when i say that sia... haha, but veyr happy to see it increase so fast...

drowning~

2006-02-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

i not sure if i can make it pass the next 30+ plus days... im missing singapore alot... jus now s i was reading my friend's blog, tear cant help but roll down!~ i miss them alot... how i wish im there... will DIT 0313 (yisan, erwin, boon, ben, nigel, vin, zhiwei, peiqi)... im trying to be strong, but i dun think i can make it!~

Can i give up and return back to singapore now~ i dun mind repeating anymore... i jus wanna be back in sg...

seriously im very scared, very very scared... after wat happen last night... dun ask me wat happened... i dun wish to tok about it..

becos of wat happen yest, i slept in the living room.... with fear n tears... hiaz... i miss my mummy the first thing i wake up... and i call her.... and before i can even say anything, once i hear her voice... i cried... terribly...till im out of breathe.... im filled with fears... and mummy was saying: "hu ask u go india? didnt i tell u not to?" and all i can do is jus cry.... then she ask me not to worry.. then she put the phone...

i went back to the room to cry my hearts out before, mummy called again, then after awhile, daddy came to the phone... scolded me... hiaz... and i really dunno wat to do but jus cried... .haiz...
mummy then take the phone back n scold daddy for scolding me... i know they scolded me cos they are very worried for me... and i understand... not angry but more upset!~

Why did i call them and make them worry for me!~ im a very bad daughter.... only knows how to make them worry!~! really feel like killing myself~! haiz...

i think i going to suffer emotionally breakdown so!~ trying my very best to be strong, but can i?
my tears jus keep flowing down ever when im typing this......... i miss home!~ home sick!~

ps: ironically, im still saying im fair to someone jus as im tagging this... dun mean to lie, but dun wan u to worry... sorry...

im pissed!~

2006-02-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

today came in office, the server is still down.... hmm, nvm, i do my log book first.... doing doing, wow~~ i have been doing nothing for 2 whole weeks leh... omg!~

haiz, then finally... i can online liao... but someone no online, no one to talk to... haiz... then go see blog, ah yo, blogger under maintance sia...... haiz.. omg, nothing to do... then cont my log book lor..

then suddenly, that person is online, so tok to him.. tell him about my horrible night mare yest...
scary lor... he dream goes like im with his guy that i totall dunno de... and we are very initimate lor... we were at this very crowded place... alot of pples.... im waiting to go into the court... seems like i sueing someone... i should enter the court at 11.00am and the room number, i dun rem clearly, like 9855? i not sure, only rem gt 9, 5, 8! but dunno y? somehow, its nv my turn to enter the room... then i saw another room with those machine that gives out number, so i went forward to take a number... then when i turn....

it seems that the room i was in was not a waiting room.. its a funeral room like that... and the crowds, dun seems human!~ so is the guy i was with!~ omg, then i quickly ran home... into this house that has 2 storey, in a very deserted place... there i was toking to one man (seems to be a agent or lawyer) then we talking that the house that i was staying actually gt pple die in it b4. and its the whole household kana murdered!~ and the guy i was with earlier was one of the member of the family..... then i wake up!~ scared!~

after finishing toking about the night mare, we tok bout other things... then out of no where, one of the vms guy came and said: "Aaron send a mail to me, and he ask me to take care of u. so anything jus ask me ok?" i was like ok... thank u... inside me, i was like cursing aaron lor... y the hell did he do it... ahhhhhhh!!!!!! qi shi wo le.... pissed off to the limit..!~!~ but after scolding him for sometime, me ok liao.. still pissed but alrite la... not that bad...

then i go see nigel's blog!~ nigel is a liar... he cheated on me... sad... erm, dun get it wrong.. thats nothing between us... i say he cheated me is cos, he promise to update his blog last fri, and he said the weekend he'll do it.. but on monday i see, he didnt update!~ lie to me!~ then i ask him again, he said that at night he'll update... jus now i go checked... he lie to me again!~~~~! sob!~! nigel!! u liar!~ haha... pls update ur blog la... i very bored, reading blog is my enterainment....

then next was airtel!~ they send me a sms that read: "dear customer, your account is credited with rs.50 based on the handset bundled offer. enjoy our services. regards AIRTEL." they bluff me... they nv top up for me.... y send me that msg... sad... qi pian wo de gan qing.... haiz...

wat a morning!~

lunch?

2006-02-06T16:19:00.000+08:00

hmm, lunch at the canteen is getting more n more nice... firstly its cheap... haha, only 25 rupees leh, equal to singapore less then 1 dollar leh.. haha... anyway, the food is nice... but somehow after that, i'll get a slight gastric, think the spices very powerfully... not spicy to the mouth, spicy the my internal parts... haiz... bleah~!

PS: CAN SOMEONE STOP WHINING BOUT ME NOT COOKING FOR HIM~!~ ELSE I
REALLY DUN COOK LIAO!~!!

back to work~

2006-02-06T12:55:00.000+08:00

today is monday~ back to work... haha... i can blog again~ cos apartment's internet is limited and we dunno the price we need to pay if over use, so better dun use... heee.... already quite broke liao, so better save abit... i still wanna msg de leh... heeeeeeee...

anyway today woke up quite early... cos need to prepare breakfast for the gals... woo... hee... recently didnt slp well... that explain y im feeling giddy now ba.. or isit the bun? cos its still there and painful too... not sure la... anyway these few days keep having weird dreamz!~ haiz...

sat night: i dreamt of edward msging me and wanting a patch all this... i dunno, the dream seems so real... that when i woke up, i still go check my hp leh... hmm, hope it wun come true... and on the same day, i also had many other dream, but when i woke up, i cant rem them at all... but i know i had them... haiz....

Sun night(yest) : i dreamt of edwin(not the nyp edwin la, its my sec n pri sch edwin la) i like him for 2 yrs in during my sec 3 & 4.... 2 whole yrs... that time i was crazy for him... haiz... some should know how crazy i get~! but we were nv together... but in my dream, i dream of the 2 of us together... as in bgr~~~ i not sure, about this... but i find it scary, cos me n edwin is history... very long ago liao... hmm.... weird

edward, edwin~~ all the ed.... hmm, confuse... but forget it la... the 2nd dream will nv come true.. while the first, i hope it wun come true at all...

wooooooooooo.......... today for breakfast~! we had pizza... and also tomato eggs.... yummy... i cook de... the bread pizza very simple de!~

ingredients needed:
- tomato sauce (best is tomato puree)
- bread (depends on how many slices u wan)
- cheese (those for pizza de, forget how to spell liao)
- and hotdog (or prawn & sotong, but prawn & sotongs u will need some onion)

steps:
1. cut the hotdog into slices (the sotong into rings, the prawn jus peel of the shells)
2. cut the onion (optional)
3. spread the tomato sauce/puree on the bread. (if sauce, put slightly thicker, puree jus average
will do la, not too thin layer)
4. put the hotdog then the cheese on top of the bread....
5. put into the oven/micro wave to heat... not too long, jus till the hotdog is cooked and the
cheese has melt can liao...

hmm, dunno wat to write liao.... my head spinning... very giddy!~ haiz... better stop here.... anyway hope u all like the recipe.... be careful when handling the oven/microwave and the knife.... enjoy!~ have fun!~

ps: i love u!~ everyone!~ muackz!~

wat a nice day~!

2006-02-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeee.... official liao... offical wat? i dunno... u find out urself ba... but after all... its a happy day... although my bun is still there... ouch!~ pain sia...

haiz, actually dun plan to go out de... but then we still short of some stuff... like fruits and we wan to eat pelita... althought the service is like yucks... but the food is like yummy.~!~

hmm, after eating we go buy groceries.... hmm, everything was ok.. but someone nearly kana hit by cars as usual!~ haiz.... if u wanna know wat happen then msg me on msn ba... dun wish to say it here.... but some should know wat happen la...

at night, msg him n tell him.... wonder if he is happy??? but then nvm... im happy... haha, yana wan saying when someone play mia, i'll loss my mood in everything... did i? no i didnt.... haha, but its for them to judge la....

erm, i dunno wat to write liao leh........ i only rem, its very happy happy day overall... and very fattening day too... cos we skip dinner and jus had ice cream n chocolate as dinner... ops.... fat!~

a stupid me!~

2006-02-04T11:56:00.000+08:00

hmm, stupid me? y i say so... well lets say!~ hmm, first thing in the morning come of the room, knock my leg against the sofa! ouch@!~ pain leh....

then after that kick myself on the diner table... (Cos too eager to use the computer liao) again ouch!~ after that go out, while smsing, i miss a step and fall down... pain!~ i hurt my ankle and my thighs and also my back!~ oooooooo............ people that knows me long enough should know my back injury is quite jialat... so u can imagine~!

haiz, nvm........ then go pelita eat our brunch, kao, their service is getting from bad to worse lor... then we starting to tips them ever lesser... haha....but to how stupid i can get....

then back at home!~ thinking of how fat i was getting, i decided to do some sit up.... haiz, but when i was trying to throw myself down that time, i knock my head on the bed's corner..... OUCH!~ this time is really very pain lor... now gt one big bun!~ aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh....
kao, the bed's corner is square de leh....its like.... OMG~!~ pain... hai... then after that still giddy lor... then i keep feeling my head see gt blood ma... pain like hell lor... .aaaaaahhhh......... i was rollin on the bed... calling angie!~ my mummy!~

then after that, i came out of the room, i knock my hips against the sofa again!~ this time, i roll on the floor... my head so pain liao, still knock on the hips... ah........

i wonder wat a day i have... and how stupid can i get!~!~! ah~~~ then go online to complain to someone, then that stupid idiot!~ say i silly, and my friend say i stupid!~!~~!~ a bunch of idiots!! although i admit i stupid dun have to say me de ma!~... hmph!~

Server DOWN??

2006-02-03T19:33:00.000+08:00

haiz, i tot blogger is suppose to be one of the most stable site... but yet, jus now server down.. but ok la, quite fast recover.... but i already forget wat i wanna blog about liao.... haha... anyway, today is another boring day... but thankfuly, its about to be over... 40 more minutes to home... weeeeee......... haha... home home!~!~

today whole day gastric... sad case... especially after food, pain sia.. but now ok liao.. hope dinner wun be painful again ba.. haiz... ok... i shall end here... anyway, i miss u!~! u should know hu i referring to ba.... =p

bloated!~

2006-02-03T11:53:00.000+08:00

haiz, think im getin fatter n fatter liao... man, i feel so bloated.. *vomit* i had a very heavy and assumptous meal.. cooked by me!~! the so called chef in the house!

wat did i cooked for breakfast today?alrite la, it might not sound nice but its better then bread n jam la.. although the jam very nice la... but tomato eggs is ever better... lol... make me fat now... eat so much sia... Later i also gt italy then no one wan how? ah... must diet liao >.<

anyway really must cut down on talking on the phone liao... angie is nagging at me again!~ she say i spend so much money then also alway so late then bath cos im on the phone... haiz... really like a mummy, so naggy... ;p

erm, this morning, arron went to meet my parents, to pass somethings la.... not meet the parents session ok? hmm, then my parents bring my cute little darling along, my dog (pudding aka ding ding)........ and aaron say she very fluffy... omg, i miss my dog so much sia.... haiz.... can i have my dog by my side now? i wan nothing else but my dog now..... sad!~ cry... :'(

early morning cry liao, jus cos i miss my dog, funny rite? but u wun understand the fact that i love my dog alot... we shares secret... if the dog can talk, im died!~!!~ haiz.... but at least now my gastric is better liao... i think eat too much then gastric, but now, ok liao.... heee... i jus have a weak body!@!

haiz, i think i should stop for now, back to the mental torture in vms... haha, nothing to do but cant slp or play games, only can stare at the screen...everyday has been the same for the pass few weeks.... haiz, and worse staring at struts.......... haiz, mental torture to the limit.... wat i can do is view at blogs and urge my friends to update it so that i can have some enterainment in reading them... haiz....

ps: my hatre and anger for something n someone has grown... stronger and stronger... must curb it else, im afraid one day i'll realy bomb!~~!~ hope things will change for the better ba... miss home, my bed with my tiggers, family and friends....

im being molested

2006-02-02T16:21:00.000+08:00

ah........ i dun wanna live anymore... im being molested... and somemore, while molesting, the person give a very scheming look.. like self high lor.... omg!!!!!!!! disgusting lor... poor angie worse... when she kana molested, the person even wet her lips like.... eek....

and the person touch the breast that time, the smile like omg, disgusting lor... so high for wat sia... er xin.. mummy, i wanna go home... hiaz...

ok la, i think if i cont, many pple is going to call my hp ask wat happen liao... haha... its goes like this... we walk thru the short cut, then the security say must check our body before we go out.. its like omg... i tot jus normal check... anyway the security is a gal...

but individually, we go into a room.. and the person actually touch from breast to thighs... its like ok... nvm... worse is when she touching, we give those eeekss smile and laughter lor.. for angie was even worse lor, the person was licking her own lips when touching angie lor... omg.. disgusting rite??? first time i kana molested by a gal lor.... or say being touched like that by a gal, even my best friend also nv like that lor....
wat a lunch sia....

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